Mike Rinder’s Open Letter To His Family

Preface: When DM sent six people out to Denver (including Tommy and DM’s personal attorney Yingling) a year ago in an effort to silence Mike – an event I witnessed from start to finish – Mike made it crystal clear that he did not want his family subjected to the indignity of acting as pawns for DM in an effort to “handle” Mike.  Like clockwork, the master of Black Dianetics launched a year-long ongoing campaign to use Mike’s family as something much worse (in my opinion) than pawns.  Perhaps publication of this letter will help to bring about the cessation of DM’s relentless, sadist, familycidic (my made up term) behavior.  – Marty

Dear Andrew, Taryn & Cathy,

You made a big issue out of my failure to respond to your letters, so I am responding herewith to the letters each of you sent.  

I note that Jude sent me a letter when I was living in Denver – but didn’t send another in the second round after I moved near where she lives, and Benjamin didn’t send me a letter at all.  I guess the Church is worried that I may respond in person by paying her or Benjamin a visit and it sort of blows the “You have disconnected from your family and refuse to communicate to them” line when I show up and they are unwilling to talk to me (as when I went to the Fort Harrison and requested to see Benjamin).

I also note your letters were coordinated, all coming from the address of the International Justice Chief.  You put notes saying you want me to respond to that address because you are “following LRH policy.”  How so?  If I am an SP, my only terminal is IJC.  No policy says IJC is your postal service. And if you are following what the Church now claims is LRH policy – then these letters are disconnection letters. Or are you trying to “handle” me and get yourself to gentle cause?  Which is it? Handle or disconnect? Somehow you seem to be demanding that I communicate with you?  But only if it is supervised? I really don’t know, what policy it is that you are applying?

I also respond here to the letters you sent to the St Petersburg Times.  Those letters attempted to spin the encounter at the doctors into a “family dispute” that occurred because you just “happened” to see me driving into her parking lot (This story doesn’t quite square with “we are routing this from IJC as we are following LRH policy” – is this a family matter or a church matter?).  Odd though that none of you mentioned the 4 people from “International Management” or the 2 PIs that accompanied you on this “family dispute resolution”?  And you failed to mention that you had been following me for at least a day prior to showing up at the doctor’s office (Andrew, you said “I saw you yesterday and you looked terrible” – the only time I had left home that day was to ride my bike half a mile to the beach with Christie and Shane so I guess you were staked out next to the park in one of the SUVs with blacked out windows?).   You also told the SP Times that you were here visiting Jude and Benjamin – yet you said to me twice “You have no idea what I had to go through to be able to talk to you, Mike.”  And where were Benjamin and Jude if you were here visiting them and just happened to be out driving around?  And why did you have two rental cars for you, Taryn and Cathy when neither Taryn nor Cathy drives? 

But, like with everything in the church today, I do understand the position you are in and what you are required to do, and I bear you no ill will. In fact, Andrew and Taryn, as you will recall, I told you from the outset, and repeated a number of times, that I would happily talk to you without the screaming audience present. 

And by the by Andrew, I guess you hadn’t experienced the raving madwoman insanity of Jenny Linson before.  I challenge you to honestly ask yourself: “Is this really one of the most senior executives in Scientology?” Yes, unfortunately.  But in truth she is just a wind-up doll that spouts the words that David Miscavige tells her to scream and is otherwise incapable of original thought. That is why she is one of his most trusted pit bulls he sends out to make a fool of herself and Scientology on CNN and then again when she led the screaming in the “family dispute resolution” (though I thank God she is not family). 

Finally on the SP Times letters, it would be a good idea to remember the episode was recorded by the BBC.  Don’t fall into the trap of lying on behalf of the church to the media.  It never works out in the long run.

Sadly, I don’t believe you will read this letter, as it would be “spreading black PR” for you to see it.  Possibly you will be shown some edited version. That’s why I put it on the internet so perhaps there is a chance that at least you Andrew can read the entire letter.   You should.

If you had really intended for me to respond to your letters I would have suggested a different approach that didn’t include saying the following: “You are not even a Scientologist, so stop pretending.”  “Maybe you should check out of this game and go sit on a rock for a few million years, way out of the way.”  “Overwhelmed, implanted, evil-purp beings like you…”  “We will continue to flourish and prosper despite your feeble efforts to make yourself, and the bunch of fruitcakes you hang out with, right.”  “The American Psychiatric Association is in the phone book. Why don’t you give them a call. You are 95% in their camp by now anyway.”  “Go contemplate at a rock for a long time and destimulate.” “You could not actually have a soul.  It could only be rock solid blackness…” “You think you can fake out other people, taking advantage of the fact they don’t actually know you weren’t a Scientologist, having never studied or practiced the Religion you are now so viciously attacking.” “You continue to prove that you really don’t care about anyone and have no personal desires for betterment and never did.” And that’s just a few comments from 12 type-written pages of similar stuff.  I take it you were following what someone told you was the way to “handle” SPs?  Whoever it was gave you some really bad advice because it only served to make me more determined to do whatever is needed to end the insanity that has pervaded Scientology which includes turning family members against one another.

Your letters gave me the distinct impression that the only thing you would want to hear from me was “I am sorry I have been so stupid, I am reporting back to the bilges/Hole/tent on the golf course and I will write up steps A-E 5 times through”  But, that isn’t going to happen, so why respond?

The foundation for that impression was the letter I received from Cathy when I reached out to her after I first left. I asked her to call me or come and visit.  Her response, and I quote: “Fuck off. That is the last thing I would want to do. PS: I’ll send the divorce papers and brief the kids.”   Cathy, what is it with the divorce? OSA lawyers put the papers together for you as the petitioner, I signed them, and they were filed and assigned a case number in Los Angeles Superior Court (BD476191) on Nov 19, 2007.  It’s a formality to have an uncontested divorce with no mutual property and no child custody go through the court process.  Yet, now, when it is convenient (i.e. in dealing with the media?) you claim you are still my wife, though you use some other name – Bernardini — neither your maiden nor earlier married names?  What is this about?  Based on your communication at the outset, the letters you have sent and your screaming tirades when you “happened to see me,” including your command to “stay away from Benjamin” I would hazard a guess that you don’t want to be married to me (nor by the way do I want to be married to you).  Apparently you don’t even want to sully yourself by using my name. So, why scream “He is my husband” at the doctor?   Did you (or OSA) do something to prevent your divorce petition from being finalized?  Is this another good tactical move to combat “the SP”? 

And while on this subject – Monique Yingling told the St Petersburg Times that I had refused to see you in Denver.  She claimed that you were there to inform me about the situation with Benjamin and that I did not want to talk to you.  Just so you know, and I have a recording of this meeting, she never told me you were in Denver and never told me there was any information I needed to know about Benjamin. And you didn’t try to call me, even though you reportedly flew to Denver to see me (I take it you weren’t there skiing?). Monique called me on my cell phone. Why didn’t you?  You even have my email address – so does Linda Hamel and others in OSA.  When Monique called me and said she was in town and wanted to see me, I arranged to see her. I would have done the same with you (though Tommy came all the way to Denver and stated he was there to see me too – but when I tried to call him to arrange a time and place, Monique wouldn’t let him talk to me).  

So the record is clear, it was only after the 6 man team came to Denver to try and handle me and I told Monique she should go back to LA and deal with the rot that was destroying Scientology from within that you all decided to write to me.  This was two years after I had left the SO.  I had sent Xmas cards to everyone and the only person who responded was Barbara – until she too was told she could not communicate to me and sent me an “IJC” letter. Her cards and letters were nice, telling me I will always be her son regardless of anything and good roads, fair weather chat about dogs and kids and mundane matters.  Mine were similar in response as I had no intention of creating any further upset for her. I was simply letting her know I was OK and wasn’t living in poverty under a bridge or dying of leukemia because I thought she would worry.  I didn’t “suppress” her or give her a bunch of entheta.  Andrew, I am sure you have seen those cards and letters by now – she even sent me photos of James and his wife and child, so proud to be a great-grandma.  Barbara said she was too old to travel to the Freewinds or Flag again, so she had “nothing to lose” by communicating with me but was very worried that Andrew and Pat would find out. But that was too good to last – after all, her being in contact with me was “preventing her Bridge progress” – NOT – she told me she was on the Academy levels at the org and doing great auditing others, of course, she couldn’t do OT IX and X as they don’t exist.  So, the letters that you then sent to me, along with the less than subtle effort to buy my silence by Monique, solidified my conviction that I could not ignore the destruction of Scientology at the hands of David Miscavige.

The problem is that none of you know what is really going on.  You have been fed a lot of information that contains enough grains of truth to be believable, and yet is perverted to create a very false picture.

You have no doubt been given all sorts of DA packs and materials about me.  Don’t you think it’s a little odd that there are such materials about everyone?  Isn’t it starting to set off alarm bells that every person who ever speaks out about what they have seen has “confessions” about how terrible they were and how they were all trying to destroy COB?  You’ve written similar things Cathy, I have seen them with my own eyes.  They are only not used because you continue to toe the line.  But your confessions are just like everyone else’s – you admit you have tried to impede and overworked poor COB because unless you do that you won’t get out of the trouble you are in.  I did at least 10 “A through Es” during the time I was either CO CMO Int, WDC OSA, CO OSA Int or in the Hole (that is probably more than you have done, Cathy, but I know for certain you did at least two A-E write ups because you were an SP along with everyone else in the Hole and they admit to terrible crimes and intentions towards Miscavige and Scientology). Now, it is impossible that every single person in International Management is out to destroy David Miscavige and Scientology.  But if you look in every person’s files, you will find the same sort of “confessions”.  He proclaims loudly and repeatedly that this is the “op” of Int Management and nobody is going to get anywhere until they admit to it.  There are ready made “confessions” to “D/A” every person at the Int Base.  It’s designed that way. And no prizes for guessing what LRH says about someone who claims everyone else is an SP.

And just as an aside: Didn’t it ever strike you as just the tiniest bit strange that I was the International Church Spokesperson while I had been declared by David Miscavige, not once, but at least 5 times. And that I was doing this after those “confessions” that are published in Freedom Mag or handed out in D/A packs.  I would come out of the Hole or the bilges or OGH or the lake at St Hill as a total SP (according to DM), put on a suit or tuxedo and be the church spokesman or a speaker at one of the phony Int events? Is that standard Scientology policy at work?

The majority of the sensational “entheta” about David Miscavige concerns his physical and mental abuse of people.  I know that in the circumstances you are in, you will swear under oath that black is white in order to protect him and his acts.  But Cathy, you have seen it. Don’t pretend you haven’t.  You just believe it is acceptable behavior because of all the “wonderful things” he does.  But those two data don’t add up – savior of Scientology and vicious tyrant.  And if it really is OK in your mind that he acts the way he does – why is everyone lying about it?  Why not come out and say “Yes, he does beat people and he mentally abuses them, but we all think it is OK because he does so much good for Scientology”.   Don’t kid yourself that it is just because “wogs” wouldn’t understand how it is the greatest good for the greatest number of dynamics.  No, 97.5% of Scientologists would be horrified if the church admitted the truth and the flow of funds would dry up.  That’s DM’s dirty little secret. Scientology is supposed to be about the truth. Not covering up what goes on behind closed doors.  That internal rot is a symptom of the decay of the church because it no longer represents truth.

 Taryn, I don’t know for a fact if you have personally witnessed Miscavige wailing on someone, but if not, I am sure you have heard from plenty of people who have seen Gary Wiese being hit by him, and probably also Guillaume, Heber, Yager, Mithoff.  Henning Benndorf saw it hundreds of times and Miscavige told Henning to hit people on his behalf.  Henning was in SFX a lot.  When I asked you whether it was OK for Miscavige to hit people, your response to me was “I never saw him hit you.”  Probably true. But it was not a response to the question I asked.

Andrew, I know you haven’t seen this sort of insane behavior.  Nor have you witnessed the mental abuse.  You know I was in the bilges for more than a month with Guillaume, Heber and Yager at the same time Barb was on the Ship completing OT VIII. I had to be kept out of her sight in case it enturbulated her. When she attested, I was brought out of the bilges for an hour to get cleaned up and sit with her in the Heritage restaurant while someone stood guard at the door to ensure I didn’t do something funny.  It’s odd, I was so happy for her, but it was such a strange situation, it was difficult to not let my true feelings (“What the fuck is happening here?”) show through.  But that’s the weird shit that goes on. You can ask Barb about it.  I am sure she will remember. I had people go ahead of me to ensure she wasn’t in any passageway if I ever went out of the bilges. I know she thought it odd that I had been on the ship for a month after MV and she hadn’t seen me.

But honestly, Miscavige’s insane treatment of SO members isn’t the most major departure from the ideal scene.  It is just a manifestation of his aberration and the true crimes that he is engaged in.

I asked you Andrew if you knew what inurement was.  Hopefully by now you have had the good sense to look it up. Miscavige is guilty a hundred times over. And that could bring about the demise of the Church.  He knows it, but he thinks he is above the law (as well as policy) and can outsmart anyone.  He can’t.  But more importantly, he is in direct violation of very strict LRH policy. You have probably been convinced that “COB” deserves everything he has and more.  Dozens of cars. Private jets. Lavish quarters.  Expensive meals. Outrageous gifts. Cooks and maids and servants and typists and secretaries and chiropractors and hairdressers and makeup men.  The problem is, LRH didn’t have that. And LRH made his money by writing his own books. DM hasn’t done anything other than illegally assumed control of the Church and is reaping the rewards, not of his work, but by taking what LRH created. The $1500 per day for a scuba boat to sit next to the Freewinds, the lavish meals and expensive cars are paid for by the donations of good Scientologists like you.  Just one day of that $1500 per day boat charter would probably pay someone’s monthly mortgage that they took out in order to increase their IAS Honor Status.  The money spent on having 4 PIs follow me full time would buy 2000 copies of Dianetics every day that could be handed out to people for free.  Did LRH waste money like that? No way. And if you look at the article, What our Fees Buy you will see what he has to say about this.

You have been convinced that the Ideal Orgs strategy is a wonderful, on Source program.  It isn’t. It is propaganda by redefinition of words.  The LRH game for orgs was to expand beyond the size of Old St Hill and with that done get the staff to OT.  You don’t hear about this anymore, and the Universe Corps is a faded memory. THAT was LRH.  “Ideal Orgs” is DM.  This is what LRH says about the subject:

” We own a tremendous amount of property. We own a tremendous amount of material, and so forth. And it keeps growing. But that’s not important. When buildings get important to us, for God’s sake, some of you born revolutionists, will you please blow up central headquarters. If someone had put some HE (high explosives) under the Vatican long ago, Catholicism might still be going. Don’t get interested in real estate. Don’t get interested in the masses of buildings, because that’s not important.

“What is important is how much service you can give the world and how much you can get done and how much better you can make things. These are important things. These are all that are important. A bank account never measured the worth of a man. His ability to help measured his worth and that’s all. A bank account can assist one to help but where it ceases to do that it becomes useless.”  L. Ron Hubbard, 31 December 1960 lecture, The Genus of Dianetics and Scientology.

But even more important than this is the perversion of fundamental Scientology.  PTS/SP tech is being squirreled with disconnection used as a means of controlling people rather than a last resort tool to help someone de-PTS and lead a happier life.  It’s so bad, the Church spokesman doesn’t even know what to say any more – he says one time that there is no such thing as disconnection and then tries to go back on it and say it “isn’t enforced” and then tries to say it’s like the Catholic religion.  I mean, guys, why not come out and say what really happens. There isn’t a Scientologist in the world that doesn’t know how it goes. If what is being done IS standard Scientology – why not just come out and admit it? 

And there are many other examples, including 6 month sec checks on OT VII, redefining F/N’s, a training line up that makes robot auditors.  You will, of course, reject this out of hand.  But look at the long term international stats – they don’t lie.  And I know they suck as I have been into many orgs in the last 6 months and every single one of them is empty. From London to NY to Tampa to Dallas to Brighton to Orlando to Miami to Denver to Kansas City.  And I have received first hand reports from people who have been into numerous other orgs.  And while the propaganda line is “new orgs opening” in truth it is only new buildings opening.  There hasn’t been a new org opened in recent history.

Here are some articles I suggest you read. They won’t take you long. And if you can truly think for yourself then you can make up your own mind.  But I would hazard a guess that you a) will never be informed that they even exist, b) if you do hear of them you will be told not to read them because they are all lies or c) you will reject them out of hand as you have already been conditioned to believe that the internet only contains entheta intended to destroy you and Scientology.  But, just imagine if LRH had lived his life that way. Afraid to look or see because someone told him it was all bad.  He would never have discovered the reactive mind. Or anything else for that matter.  What happened to the idea that Scientology teaches you to find answers for yourself?  Here are the urls for the articles.  There are literally thousands of others written by all manner of people.







So, you now have a response and you can decide what you want to do. I am more than happy to communicate with you – any time you want. Though I am not willing to have the communication controlled by the Church.  If you can’t have a comm cycle without being supervised by someone in the church then I don’t know what freedom you feel you have achieved.

And remember, it is so very easy to dismiss everything that is said that doesn’t match the party line because there is a built in justification:  they’re an SP, they didn’t really make any case gain (even though they may have attested to every level including OT VIII), they are not really a Scientologist, it is just their own overts etc etc.  Some won’t confront reality until it is “acceptable” – i.e. that enough others have decided that this is reality so it is OK to go along. They can’t “think for themselves” and observe what they see.  But that is what Scientology teaches you. And if all you can do is think according to the dictates of others, you are not truly free.  I hope you can look and not brush off the outpoints you observe.  And start to think for yourselves.  Don’t wait until it has become “fashionable” – that is not the manner of a real Scientologist. 

I wish you all happiness. I know how hard it is to find inside the cocoon.  It is inevitable DM’s house of cards built on a quicksand of lies will fall.  It’s only a matter of time and how much more destruction occurs before his reign comes to an end.



149 responses to “Mike Rinder’s Open Letter To His Family

  1. Excellent letter. Heartbreaking circumstances and utterly inhumane. But then, dmology is not humane. Never has been and never will be.

    There are many independent and hidden independents I’m certain in Australia. Your family is well known. Your mother is not hidden and quite loved. Someone will print this off, and post it to her or hand it to her. Privately.


  2. WAO Mike .. I understand your situation and it is good you explain it here for everyone to see and if they realy got the tech…. see if they can cognite what it means free of THINK!!! and BE YOURSELF!!!! Your mother is a sweet person I had the pleasure to know… and I know how she must be feeling because I went through something similar with my family… FLOW TONS OF ADMIRATION TO HER… and I’m sorry for Pat and Andrew who I also Know…though they were really OT’s…
    Well keep the good work .. all this will get to and end…. I’m sure of it.. and I’m with all of you… each person count!!!

  3. Caliwog,

    I dont think you understand the mindset here. Pleas will accomplish nothing until there is a realization that something is wrong and that they need to think for themselves. They know I want the family restored. It’s why DM is devoting so much effort to this — the letters and visits are attempts to play on that button.


    • Mike, your in my prayers that your family will be restored someday and your kids will get out of the chaos before it destroys their lives. So I’m wishing Godspeed on playing that button for all it’s worth, and here’s hoping you have other strategies up your sleeve for pushing the issue until some sort of positive outcome is achieved.

    • “A small body of determined spirits fired by an unquenchable faith in their mission can alter the course of history.”

      – Mohandas K. Gandhi

    • Mike, thanks for the ack and answer.

      I definitely understand the mindset. I think it’s you who does not understand mine – or perhaps you just don’t remember.

      You talk about what DM has done to your wife and kids, but what about what LRH has done to you? Maybe you’re just not ready to see that. The most effective traps are the ones we keep ourselves in. But believe me, Mike, what you’re exhibiting isn’t the normal behavior of someone forcibly separated from the people they love.

      Ask yourself again, Mike: Where is your heart?

      If you ever need a friend, you have my email address.

      ML (really),

  4. Mike,

    What a beautiful letter! Sadly, it will probably never be seen. Each paragraph is so packed with truth that it would be hard to edit it to be viewed at all. It was probably lost in the mail, damn postal service. I hope somehow they will find a way to hear the truth despite the barriers.

    BTW, it is easy to find out if your divorce is truly final if your interested. Just go to the website for the Superior Court of the county it was filed in. I was able to watch the progress of mine completely on line. Yours should have gone through very easily, unless they failed to send in correct documents. This would result in immediate rejection.

    My ex husband file and I waited the appropriate six months, thought I was divorced, only to find out they rejected it because one of the forms used was not the correct year. I had to refile all over again.

  5. Mike:

    How dreadfully sad it is that you must suffer the loss of a brother, daughter, and son. It is heartrending to see such destruction to a family at the hands of that POS, low down, dirty, midget. No one can spend a lifetime without consequences for their actions. The consequences can be delayed, but they will always come. The CoM is empty because DM made it so. People are not coming in anymore because of the fact the “new tech” doesn’t work. He has perverted everything he touches because he is a POS.

    I hope your family reads this letter. I hope that they are brought to see that they are being controlled by a mad man, the biggest SP to every grace this world. I hope that they come to you with their hearts open and arms full of loving hugs for you, because that is what you deserve.

    There must come a time for us all to think for ourselves. It may be slow in coming, but it always happens, like an awakening. Once it happens, no one can ever control that person again. There is only so much someone can digest before they really see what happened to them.

    It will happen.

    Thank you for your letter. Thank you for proclaiming what you needed to proclaim in a public setting where it is not twisted, censored and then re-written to be rendered useless by that midget and his wanker brigade. Good job, Mike.

    If you need anything, let me know. I would be happy to help.


  6. Nightmares Getting Less


    A very powerful letter, I am sure you spent a lot of time preparing it carefully, and you certainly accomplished that. If DM’s puts another one of his crazy “spins” on this, he himself will dig his own ditch, and unfortunately’s the Church’s as well.

    10-15 A to E’s in the hole! Insane!!!!!!!!!

    I recently found someone I knew before, was on the RPF for 13 years.

  7. Mike;

    Hope you start your book soon. You don’t write much, but everytime you do your writing always get a WOW out of me.

    So sorry for your family of kool aid drinkers. I do hope your mom gets to read this letter. Knowing older mom’s like I do, don’t be surprised if she comes to your aid in a very outspoken way.

    I know your brother is a grown man but he’s acting like a scared little boy hiding from the boogy man. Andrew needs to stand up to the current Church of Scientology management and defend his brother’s honor.

    Mike the “INDEPENDENTS” will win back their church with the truth and now that you’ve come forward in a very overt way, truth is getting revealed.

    Thanks Mike from one of your many friends who has your back.

  8. With all the recreational facilities the Church mentioned in their video, they forgot to mention the pole that people are forced to run around in 100 + degree heat.

    Also, Marty Rathbon – any relation to this fella?

  9. I feel your pain, mate. I’ve long held as my stablest of datums that “The Being Always Knows”. I believe the truth will win because, like us, it can only be occluded, buried, hidden, imprisoned, but never killed.

  10. Mike,

    Thanks for sharing the letter and the whole scene. Very powerful. I’m sure that if your brother takes a real look he will change his mind and de-PTS himself. I will help any way I can to bring the day when the blinders are pulled off of all our friends and families. Let me know of any way I can help.

  11. Thank you Mike for being willing to publish on the Internet a very personal communication. A pebble, no, a boulder, has been dropped in a pond and the ripples will continue to reach out and impact all who see it.

  12. martyrathbun09

    A Flag Public asked that I post this for him/her:
    Dear Marty,

    I don’t really get how to post on your site but this is what I want
    to say.

    Boy! You bring new understanding to “your integrity is more
    important than your immediate life.”
    I used to think that was limited to just your physical life such as
    risking your life to save some else and preventing
    them from being run over by a car where you could be killed. I
    didn’t get it could mean risking it all and then living with
    your decision in a state where you remained whole or were enabled
    to be complete again.

    Every time I read one of these types of posts I’ve hoped and prayed
    that this is just not true. I saw Tommy Davis on
    Anderson Cooper misrepresenting the materials in the PTS.SP packs
    I’d studied and applied and I was hoping the church would
    post a correction on its website and a press release for the media
    stating that Mr. Davis had made a mistake. A simple clarification
    would have done it for me. I looked for it. It didn’t happen. And
    now I have to look at that and accept it for what it really is.
    I know the references and can cite them verbatim. I also know PR
    Series 2 and understand why one shouldn’t lie in PR. Now
    I understand it at an all time high because hearing Tommy, our
    church spokesman (and a young man I thought the world of
    lie created instability for me within the group I cherished so

    Times are changing. We are becoming more and more aware of what is
    really going on, and factually, what has been
    going on all along. We’ve been die-hard Flag public and as a family
    have availed ourselves of everything we could possibly
    do in terms of processing and training. Yet, I find it hard to
    fathom that while I was enjoying my extended stays at Flag
    with family, having life changing wins, that others were being
    deprived and denied in a complete polar opposite all that
    I was being given. I won’t buy a product not made by “Fair Trade”
    because I can’t live with that–even if it saves me a few
    bucks. How do we create Scientology in a humane “fair trade” manner
    on a regular basis?

    I think this is the breaking point for me. I can no longer pretend
    and not see, what in truth, I’ve suspected for a very
    long time. I don’t know who to trust any longer. I’ve decided to
    trust in myself and what I know, what I’ve seen for
    myself and what I’ve experienced. And now the courage to say…
    Well that’s currently my focus.

    It’s time to bring the love and humanity and all that is spiritual
    and great in Scientology back for the public, the staff and the Sea
    members. That’s what this was all about for me in the first place–
    and what it needs to be again for all of us.

    Free Spirit 88008
    Flag Public

    • Fellow Traveller

      “I think this is the breaking point for me. I can no longer pretend and not see, what in truth, I’ve suspected for a very long time. I don’t know who to trust any longer. I’ve decided to trust in myself and what I know, what I’ve seen for
      myself and what I’ve experienced. And now the courage to say…”

      Thank you for the courage and integrity to stop pretending. Commendable. Very.

      As far as the rest, well, welcome to the party! Personal integrity is a blast. It is not pain free.

      Bruce Pratt

    • To Free Spirit88008,

      Well, fan-F’ing-tastic! This was so well said and so good to hear.

      I, too, “vote with my pocket book” when I spend, and I work at living more sustainably all the time.

      The first action of non-support I took, in CoS, was not going to the events, not buying (figuratively and literally) the next “flavor of the month” new release or Wooptie-F’ing-Do campaign, and not putting one more dollar there.

      Then, once I realized where that stink was coming from, and how bad it really was, I just had to “vote with my feet”, no longer wanting any affiliation with the facade. I had been so “faithfully” focused on the prize, the aims and goals, I’d missed and refused the reality – for too long, but better late than never.

      Now I’ll stand, every chance I get, with those who are speaking out for healthy change and authenticity, and against the lies and abuses.

      How can we not, now that we know?

      I hope you’re speaking for many, many more right now and an avalanche to follow!

    • Thank you free spirit.
      So happy you have found our humble, quiet, well-ordered, well-behaved and mild-mannered little group.
      Ooops! I lied too! LOL
      WELCOME!!!!!!! :) :) :)

    • Dear Flag Public,

      I am also a Flag Public but keeping Fabian as I cherish the rare communications I have with my SO children monitored by an Ethics terminal, be that as it may. Although I try not to regret yesterday my one regret is that I influenced my children in joining the SO before I had my personal experience with it and was disabused. The living conditions at Flag for staff particularly when routing out were grim. The Hacienda is surrounded by tall fences and the security gate is guarded 24/7. I was a prisoner on two levels both physically and emotionally. If I left before I was OKed I would be declared automatically which would cut my communication with my family and friends. And then there were the fences. I worked daily for no pay during the rout out which took around 4 months.


  14. Nicely done Mike.
    They will get your communication one way or another I’m sure.
    I have had to let go of so many friends I love and hold dear and can imagine the pain it must cause to see your family members controlled, manipulated and trapped this way. Stay strong. I’m sure that your constant alertness and constant willingness to fight back will bring them back to life some day.
    ….OMG they are so far gone. Sometimes makes me wonder if some ‘hello and OK’ process are needed just to get them out of that hypnotic trance and up to being able to receive a genuine communication. :(

  15. Hello, Free Spirit 88008.

    You bring up an excellent comparison when you talk about “fair trade” products in stores and what is happening at the “Church of Scientology”.

    I think the majority of the Scientologists would agree if they truly confronted the data. That is the first obstactle, getting them to look. Getting them to disagree with the church long enough to step outside the PR machine and look for themselves. Once that is accomplished the truth will tell itself.

    Although I was crushed to discover the corruption inside and disappointment in my of own non recognition of it, I have been very happy, with my integrity returned, since disconnecting from the church. The truthliterally has set me free in more ways than I imagined.

  16. Mike,
    So sorry to see your beautiful family torn apart like this. Of all the things that are wrong within the “church” I think this is probably the most insidious aspect of it. I cannot tell you how many ex-SO and ex-Scientologists I have spoken to personally who have told me similar stories of family break-ups and disconnection. It’s a form of violence IMO to reject your own children, parents, husband etc in such a way. I hope that one day your kids will wake up and realize that their father means well, and loves them. This violent game that DM is having them play on you really tugs at my heart as it does for the many other people that have experienced disconnection. Good luck Mike. I hope they get a chance to read your letter.

  17. Theo Sismanides

    Mike, a great letter and thank you for sharing it with us!

    I really feel honor to be next to you even if the times are hard for everyone but especially for those who fight for family members as well. I know how that feels.

    However, my friend, may I say that a man who cannot confront ONE man is unable to confront any in the whole Universe. If you cannot confront one person, you cannot confront anybody.

    And now with confronting those very people, I know you care about, your children that is, you can confront anybody. Because you have nothing to hide from them anymore.

    I was ashamed to hear you were working on the bilges and then you would be taken out and had to wear a suit or a tuxedo as the International Spokesperson of the Church. I can understand how you felt. DM is using everybody in any way he can. But that is over now. No more disgrace, no more intimidation, no more craziness. We are creating a sane and theta environment and this is the BIG, BIG thing. The Theta we ARE creating here.

    There’s nothing like that. And no MEST can create it ever!!!!

    We are with you Mike!

  18. “What would happen if all men were free enough to speak? Then, and only then, would you have freedom.” — LRH, HCO PL 8 Feb 1960 HONEST PEOPLE HAVE RIGHTS, TOO (http://www.righthubbard.org/)

    Is this really what we want to be known for?

    • Impartial English Girl

      Not just to America, Jack, honey – he lied to the WORLD.

      Mike, Marty, Amy, Anderson Cooper, John Sweeney et al; they are modern-day heroes, as are all who stand beside them. In the days/weeks/years/decades/centuries to come, they are the ones who will be remembered, whereas Davis, Cruise and Miscrabige will be memorialised with the scorn and derision, which they have worked with ruthless tirelessness to earn. xx

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  20. Mike,

    Who writes these letters?

    For years people have gotten these crafted communications full of almost insistent hypnotic derogatory statements.

    It’s much like the trolls on the internet, and the Religious Freedom Watch website.

    I had hoped your being over OSA for so many years, that you could name names, who are the OSA staffers who craft or who use the active Scientologists in the LA area who write this stuff.

    We heard that Bill Yaude, Case Supervisor, Class 8, Sherman Oaks Mission, has been the troll “Roadrunner” on the internet for years.

    These words in the derogatory letters, are crafted, and crafted by someone, and it is so obvious there are some wordsmiths who’ve been doing this for years.

    Who are they? Who in OSA writes or approves this type of stuff?

    This whole Religious Freedom Watch, and all the internet smearing you and Marty and others are getting is all of the same style.

    Who’s the who, who are the who’s?

    I had hoped you would know, being over OSA for so many years.

    Is it Gavino Idda and Gloria. Lynn Farney?
    Gail Armstrong? Aaron Mason?

    Bill Yaude?

    I agree that absolutely ALL of your postings should be sent to thousands of Scientologists.



  21. Mike,

    Love seeing you stand taller and taller in your own shoes…. being more and more the being you always were and have been. The seven league boots are starting to show. There is a palpable synergy that you and Marty manifest in common cause and underlying affinity, not to mention co-conspirators Christie and Mosey and the rest of the assembled gang.

    If LRH were sitting on a cloud in heaven gazing on the the scene I bet he’d be giving you a wink and a smile.

    “Something is happening here, but you don’t know what it is do you Mr. Jones.” Bob Dylan

  22. Hey Free Spirit, Welcome. My family sounds very similar to yours. We’ve also had the benefit of all the auditing and long stays at Flag. Had we known what we know now, things would have been much different. I agree with you completely on the fair trade aspect. Our Church has lost it’s way I’m afraid. And we have all contributed in some way. Just by pretending not to see what I was actually perceiving, I contributed to the motion. For every dollar we gave in an effort to end entheta reg cycles rather than walking out and writing it up, I contributed to this motion. But, life is in us today… So no time like the present to start contributing to the solution. Good to have more theta on the team.

  23. Jesus, I’m speechless, I’ve written this comment so many times but in simplicity to have to do your A-E five times then to pulled out of the hole to be an international spokesman for Scientology when convenient is untenable.

  24. Very well written and stated.

  25. Look at all the shiney MEST. I wish I had this video near at hand when I was in reg cycles on how we needed to get donos for crucial planetary dissem campaigns. I don’t recall anything being said about funding opulent quarters.

    I had no clue that my IAS “Hill 10″ donations were buying swimming pools, basketball and tennis courts, even a golf course.

    Maybe a “Call to Arms” refers to what ball, racket or club to use.

    To the uninitiated who don’t know any better, unfortunately all the professional glitz in the video can make their position appear believable, and in the same token, CO$ can just about get away with anything by over-slicking truth with irrelevant PR.

    Better than 50% of the videos’ content massages church expansion that has absolutely no bearing on the mousy little twerp’s abuse or the slavery it took to build all that glitz, and does little else but find another avenue to promote RTCs Scientology.

    Nice repeated deflection of attention with the flashing graphics depicting where DM was from October – December.

    At least 2 of his flights went back to L.A. and he was there long enough to take a drive out to Hemet, proving absolutely nothing, except to again lace the video with ‘Shine & Glitz” to show new churches and aggrandize Miscavige’s accomplishments. Again, purely glitter promotion used to defer the real issues.

    The fabric of this PR cloud will break one day …

    Watching the videos made me feel rather ill, like I was about to be regged for more money for the NEXT big fantabulous

    Truly scary. Feels like getting lost in the shuffle … Oh well, hasn’t that already happened.

  26. SecretlyHidden

    I’m so stunned. I’ve been tracking for awhile now. But this letter sealed the deal in stone for me. I was confused by the DA material and the “confessions” previously. OMG.
    I have a young daughter on staff at a class V org. I’d like to give more details, but I’m worried it would give my identity away. I am having mixed emotions on whether to shake her world or leave her be. I beleive she is learning some valuable tools for life. She is NOT likely to go SO because of some previous experiences.

    I’d like some advice, or better stated, some opinions. What if I leave well enough alone and she ends up full of cool aide? If I disrupt her now, what does she have left to believe in? This is what she has learned from me, to “guide” her life. If I don’t interupt soon, it might be too late. Perhaps it is already too late??? She has personally experienced some wildly “weird” things.
    Man, I need to make a decision!

    • Fellow Traveller

      SecretlyHidden —

      Thank you very much for looking. That takes courage that is not often acknowledged properly.

      The first frightening step for me was the realization that I had to look closer because something did not add up.

      Thank you also for not over reacting. That would likely cause the solution to become an instant problem.

      The best advice and best thing you can do for her is make sure you are a safe terminal for her to communicate *anything* to. So what’s going on in *HER* universe?

      I also have observed that things are not all bad everywhere all the time. My god, if some scn is getting applied, that there had better be some good.

      If you are really expert at gradients, you can scope out what her perceptions and knowingnesses are. Just for an example say while both looking at the latest promo like LA MODEAL, say “Geeze, why are there not more people in the these photos?” Gradients are marvelous. Archimedes was a genius. Sometimes we forget that gradients sometimes need to take into account the universe at each end. LRH was another genius.

      The gradient could be the difference between meddling, caring and being prepared.

      A review of *your* Code of Honor and *your* Personal Integrity are always in order.

      Bruce Pratt

    • I guess you have to decide which is more important: Your love for Scientology or your love for your daughter.

      Good luck and I hope you make the right decision.


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