Lori Hodgson is back in the saddle

 Hi! My name is Lori Hodgson. I joined the Church of Scientology in 1976. I was 13 years old.  I resigned from the COS this past August 30, 2010.

My main reasons for resigning from the COS are what I’ve seen and gone through personally over the past 4 years. The recruiting of my children for staff and the Sea Org at their ages of 15 years old and what I experienced through this is unbelievable. My parental rights were completely violated through the COS. I will share a couple of my experiences.

My son at 15 years of age was recruited for the Sea Org while I was in a horrific engram and on heavy pain pills trying to recover from a knee replacement surgery. I had Sea Org recruiters slamming on my front door and pressuring me for 2 weeks since coming home from the hospital. Then because of the stress of the recruiters’ continual harassment and my lack of proper rest I ended up back in the ER for 14 hours and then the hospital for 3 more days with pneumonia and an ovarian cyst rupture which was very serious on top of the recovering for my knee. Prior to me going to the ER, my friend met with the recruiters to not do this cycle while I was still in an engram. The recruiters told my friend that I was PTS, middle class and should not be on pain pills. They did not listen and continued until I got a doctors notice to not have any stress on my lines for 3 months so I could get rest and properly recover.

After about 4 months from my 1st surgery the recruiting started up again behind my back even though I wrote it up to the DSA to not have any recruiting until my son is 18.  After the continual pressure I gave in and my son joined the Sea Org. But I had the SO make me some promises that I really thought they would keep. The SO promised that my son would have his schooling, which he never got. They promised I could talk to him whenever I wanted and this was violated as I only got to talk to my son 5-6 times in 6 months even though I called almost daily to reach him. He was told that he could come home to visit which he couldn’t until he routed out and came home.

My 2nd knee replacement surgery was a couple months later as the 1st one was a botched surgery and the implant was 2 sizes too big. During my 2nd day in the hospital after my surgery my daughter said goodbye to me and joined the SO. On day 3 in the hospital I went into shock and almost lost my life and had to have a full blood transfusion. Since I got a 2nd chance I was going to handle my life better. During my recovery I wrote MANY reports on this out ethics situation. I continued to write it up for a year and nothing ever got handled.

I did not feel safe anymore to go in session because I could not agree that all this was for the greatest good. In the past when I didn’t agree, I would get pulled off my auditing and had to do numerous Chaplain cycles and roll backs until I agreed. So YES I resigned, as I could not be a part of this unethical organization anymore.

I found Marty Rathbun’s blog “Moving On Up a Little Higher” and saw his welcome page. I knew right then seeing his picture that I could trust him and wanted him to be my auditor. I thought “Wow Marty has a very clean space and I can feel safe with him”. Then a couple months later my very good friend Carol invited me to go with her to go visit Marty. So I booked my flight and spent 5 days at Marty and Mosey’s place. During my time there I experienced not only being audited by the number 1 auditor on the planet with standard tech, Marty and his wife Mosey are two of the nicest people I’ve ever met. I had INCREDIBLE Wins, the best I’ve had in all my years in Scientology. Marty and Mosey are truly honest, compassionate and remarkable beings and I’m honored to have them as my friends.

Three Camp Fire Girls Dishin'

I came home last Wednesday, December 8th, shining, winning and feeling very keyed out!!!!!

I wasn’t even home for more than 24 hours and got hit with a lot of entheta. On Thursday December 9th someone called my work and asked for our business hours of operation. I answered the query and then asked why was he asking, but he hung up. I was a little concerned with the strange call.

That same day while leaving work, I saw John Allender, (an undercover OSA operative of the COS and the husband of my C/S through Grades and into NED). He showed up in my parking lot and came toward me as I headed to my car. He said, “You did some squirreling over the weekend.” This indicates he knew my whereabouts and has either been following me or stalking me for a few days, since I returned from town only the day before and not even my own son knew where I’d been. Then he got closer, within 3 to 5 feet of me, and blocked my access to my car and confronted me saying, “Do you enjoy beatings?” I looked at him and said “NO” and was thinking to myself is he threatening to beat me up or giving me a warning? The comm was crazy! Then he said, “How did he know how to audit you with no PC folders?”  He said other things but I cut his comm. I said “I’m not having this conversation with you!” and I turned to go back into my office where I felt safe. My heart was racing and I could not run due to my knee replacement surgery.

The San Jose Police Department are aware of the incident on Thursday December 9th and I will continue to expose and report any harassment I encounter from the COS because I am not going to be threatened by anyone. The CoS is not above the LAW!!!! I live in America where we have Freedom and I’m not going  to be suppressed anymore. My integrity is in and I’m not going to violate it anymore! I am a free and happy being. When one knows they are doing the right thing, nothing can stop them because the truth always wins.

Lori - back in the saddle again

Lori can be reached at: thetahondagirl@gmail.com

295 responses to “Lori Hodgson is back in the saddle

  1. Well done Lori! Freedom is a wonderful thing and your are correct, NO
    ONE can take that away from ANYONE. You go Girl!

    • Lori,
      It was our pleasure having you at Casablanca! You Rock <3
      Carol,
      Thank you for inviting her to come with you!
      S&B,
      I am proud to have you as friends! Looking forward to your next visit <3 <3
      Love Mosey!

      • Mosey, I am proud to be your friend! you rock and so does Marty. He is a complete GENIUS with the tech. You two are so special to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! You are AWESOME!!!!! <3

        Love Carol

      • Hi Mosey,
        Thank you for the GREAT time!!!
        You and Marty hold a very special place in my heart. Here’s to many more fun times together.
        F,B,S. We Rock!!!!

    • Thank you Carol for being a WONDERFUL and TRUE friend!!!
      Cheers to many more fun times together.

  2. Lori,

    It keeps coming and coming. Thanks for the post very nice.

  3. Hi Lori, and welcome! I am so sorry that organization has turned into a group of bullies recruiting young children and taking them away from their family, instead of recruiting some grown-ups!!!

    But that adventure got you to Marty’s, so this is good. Great on your auditing and being back on the saddle. This is true Scientology. Thank you Marty and Mosey for being such an unstoppable Theta Force for all of us Scientologists.

    • Hi Theo,
      Thank you and yes I’m so happy I found Marty and friends. I don’t have to lose my Spiritual Freedom, in fact it’s better than ever!!! The wins I had were completely Amazing!! The abundance of new and theta friends is amazing too!!

  4. Awesome! Nice to meet ya :)

  5. Totally outrageous! The Church of Scientology things that they own us, our families, our MEST, our eternity! I say “NO MORE”

    Welcome to Freedom Lori!

    Marie-Joe

  6. Hey Lori!!!
    That is awesome that you found your way out of the trap!!
    You look like a very bright lady and we all welcome you to the Independents!!
    What became of your kids and the Sea Org? :-)
    Tony
    p.s. Thanks for being there for her Marty and Mosey!!

  7. Hi Lori,

    First, welcome to the REAL world of Scientology. I envy your being one of Marty’s PCs. I hear nothing but good things about his skills as an auditor.

    Next, you are correct in that such harrassment is not to be tolerated. If you continue to be stalked, aggressively pursue it with the authorities until those thugs in the COS back off.

    It’s good to have you with us. Please share your future wins with us.

    Centurion

    • Happy Holidays Centurion!
      Thank you for caring. I will continue to report any harassment to the authorities .
      I have many friends in high places that are true allies. And
      I feel privileged to be one of Marty’s PC’s
      He is the BEST!!!!!

  8. From Potential Trouble Source to Potential Truth Source!

    Very well done Lori. Very well done to you too, Marty. Another being salvaged from the ruins of the Church of Scientology.

    The church is dead! Long live Scientology.

    Scott

    • Hi Scott,
      Potential Truth Source & Special Person!!
      Those definitions are much more appropriate.
      Looking forward to hearing your story. :)

      • Thanks Lori,

        I’m also getting through a “clean up” progam right now and it is helping me to confront my “story” so that put it out there.

        Scott

  9. Hi Lori.

    Good for you! Thank you for having integrity, for standing up, for saying, “NO!”

    It takes courage to do what you’ve done. It’s admired and duly noted. :)

    Synthia

  10. Lori,

    Congratulations on breaking away from the Church of Miscavige after 34 years!

    You are definitely on the right track! Keep publicizing the illegal COS actions and request a repayment of any money you have on account.

    If you would like to share your experience and observations on more than one venue, please let me know. Your story deserves to be heard on every possible independent blog.

    Have an especially Merry Christmas this year!

    David St Lawrence
    possiblyhelpfuladvice.com

    • I am dittoing what Synthia and David and all the others are saying. My grandaughter, 14 was co-erced as well and her mom, Meshell Little had a very rough time.
      My grandaughter did get out and kept her job at the org in St. Louis,Mo though but is out now as well as we all are

    • Thank you David for your nice words of support. Yes share my story on other venues and I hope it helps many!!!!
      And a very Merry Christmas to you!!! :) Lori

  11. Wow, congrats Lori on getting out of the trap! Great to hear of your wins with Marty and Mosey.

    Holy sh*t regarding your kids and the manipulative suppressive actions of the SO. Those unethical actions by the SO must be stopped!

  12. Congrat’s Lori. It is painful to hear of the abuse, but joyful to hear of the escape.
    I am sure others will see more of the light because of your words.

    Thanks Marty and Mosey for being there and doing what you are doing. It is making a heck of a difference in so many ways to so many people.

    • Hi LDW,
      I feel like a big shining star after coming back from Marty and Mosey’s. Your right they are making a huge difference by putting true theta there. I had a Blast!!!

  13. Nice to meet you, Lori.

  14. As a mother of 4, my heart goes out to you. I hope your children have not cut comm with you over this. So glad you are out now, girl! Be strong, you have LOTS of REAL friends now!!!

  15. Marty a VWD on getting this girl in session!

    Lori welcome to what is really the most ethical group on the planet.

    The Church currently gets a big fail on that point.

    Their recent “handlings” indicate they obviously have no concept of the basics of Scientology or the value of good auditing.

    What amazed me (till I realized again that their concept of auditing is *no* auditing) was that they never even bothered to give you an assist after your knee operation.

    No help whatsoever!

    Then they self righteously told you to get off you pain medication.

    I then realized they’d rather have people in agony!

    Sadists!

    Hey OSA that’s spelled S*A*D*I*S*T.

    Its an awareness on the awareness scale.

    Check it out.

    It pretty much describes you and the lil’ Marque de Sade who’s running the place.

    Again welcome Lori.

    • Hi RJ,
      For the record….
      I did get assists after my knee surgeries , but I could not feel safe anymore to go in session. In the past, the chaplains and rollbacks were so not right that I couldn’t do that again.
      Now with Marty I feel completely safe to really be 100% in session!! Can’t wait to go back to Casablanca. :)

      • Lori,

        I’m glad that you’re winning again!

        This Roll Backing the public is an absurd action since its use is for locating infiltration.

        Again another “brilliant” misapplication of the tech by the Church of Squirrelotology along with their EST like seminars that feature Tony Robbins like motivational speakers.

        Along with their “Through the Looking Glass” “sessions” that are more like a theta trap or an implant or an engram than anything resembling actual auditing.

        It’s no wonder you didn’t feel safe!

        Makes you wonder if they are totally applying “Alice in Wonderland” instead restricting its use to TR1.

        Anyway Lori I’m glad you are out of that rabbit hole and are once again on the actual road to freedom.

        Ml

        Robin

  16. John Allender is a coward who picks on women and children. And we know the answer that.

    • OT VIII?
      Sad!

      • Sam it looks like a case of too much cult gain and hardly any real Scientology gain.

          • I agree these guys should not be acting like this.

            One thing Anonymous does that I object to is enturbulate (Scientology word, sorry) people and then film them.

            Punch someone in the face and then turn the camera on to show what an angry person they are. Not defending these guys, but the mechanism should be understood. It’s childish.

            • WAIT A MINUTE the only ones throwing the punches are Church Scientologists.

            • DFB,

              You seem to be implying, or outright stating, that anonymous punches or physically attacks people as some sort of standard tactic. Please show the evidence of this or retract your assertion please.
              I do know of several cases where scientologists have physically attacked or assaulted anonymous protesters — including videos of such — and will provide links on request.

            • DFB: How is that that these highly trained elite OT’s can possibly become enturbulated by any meer spoken words from anyone ?

              The VFP of the Professional TR’s course: A being who can who can handle any situation in session or in Life with TR’s alone.

              Michael A. Hobson

              • I don’t know Mike Hobson, but there it is on tape.

                Have you done Pro Tr’s ?

                • @DFB: What the above video shows is George Bailie, OT VIII, Class IX (NOTS Auditor) applying [b]Black Scientology[/i] to the Anons who were lawfully picketing. The extended video shows George *approaching them* and instigating the harrassment, so what’s your point DFB?

                  As to [i]my[/i] level of training, that is entirely irrelevant to the matter at hand.

                  Michael A. Hobson

          • I think that the “$cientology” guy in this video clip is nuts!!

            • He is consistent in his arguments though ;)

            • Tony, occasionally I like to refer to the definitions for “Scientologist” in the tech dictionary.

              This guy is not a Scientologist.

              “Someone who attempts to use what knowledge he has of Scientology to enturbulate and destroy another being” is not one of the definitions.

    • FIRST POLICY: HCOPL 2 Sept. 1970, Iss II
      “The first policy of a Scientology org, laid down on about March 1950 is:
      MAINTAIN FRIENDLY RELATIONS WITH THE ENVIRONMENT AND THE PUBLIC.”
      L. Ron Hubbard
      Founder

      Another “old and no longer used” idea that LRH had for Scientology Orgs, staff and public.

      This guy was obviously trained at DM’s school of Overwhelm. He certainly needs to go back for cramming. He just doesn’t have the evil valence down well enough. If he did, why, the protesters would have just run away in abject terror. Ohhhhhhhh….you’re so scary we’re going to flee….NOT!

      • The only other person I have known that got others to act this way was also the only person I am 100% sure was an SP.

        I’m not sure the exact mechanism. He is PTS and is trying to take on the valence of the SP, or what he thinks the SP would want.

        • It’s sort of like you are owned. It’s like if your kid was kidnapped and they said you need to do this and that, you would probably do it.
          Thats sort of what the church does with your “spiritual eternity” isnt it? If you dont do this and that you will lose your eternal salvation. So that leaves people who want to do their bridge, OT’s particularly who think their next level is what they need to go free will do anything and will try to guess at what behavior is acceptable to the SP. They will invalidate and ignore their own knowingness of what is right and wrong. If I act like a good Nazi, Hitler will like me.

    • “You’re a bigot”…such an old line. They used to say that back when I was “in”, 10 years ago. They’re the ones who lie about x-members, do their OSA “For your eyes only” 23 step program to slime me, post hatred and lies about critics. Bigots? OSA you suck, period. You can’t read, you can’t talk, you’re in the Scio-Truman Show. WTFU, please. Way to go, Anonymous :)

  17. Dear Lori,

    Thanks for sharing. It will resonate with a lot of Moms.
    My son Alexander Jentzsch son of then President of the Church Heber Jentzsch was put to slave labor when he was 13, 14, 15 years old.

    He cleaned toilets, the lobby, back staircases etc. at the Fort Harrison all day long with no schooling, no education. When a felony was committed on him, they quickly covered it up and did not report to Law Enforcement.

    The treatment of kids in the SO is a story in itself.
    Many long term veterans like ED of Cincinnati Org Jeanie (Franks/Bogvad) Sonenfield keep their kid in complete HIDING from SO recruiters because of the abuse.

    I wish I could shared Jeanie’s plan and insight with you on how to stop those SO recruiters…..

    Warm welcome to this blog…. I will be visiting with Marty this Spring and loved your story.

    • Hi Karen,
      Thank you for your support. Your story was a true inspiration for me. From one mom to another we stand together in fighting for our rights. Momma Bears don’t take to kindly to our cubs being messed with!!!! :) Lori

    • Karen#1~Don’t be hard on yourself. I had to disconnect myself from the church and move us out to the swamps to get away from it.

  18. correction – And we know the answer “TO” that. lol

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  20. Incredible . You made it. Thank God you got some auditing and are bright and cheerful.
    I thank you Marty.

  21. Welcome back home.
    I prefer to LRH.
    8)

  22. That ruthless behavior just tells me that my eval and observation is correct. They shit on your first dynamic, they shit on your second dyn, the shit on your third dynamic, they shit on justice, laws, human rights. And of course that tells you that they operate above law whenever its possible. Take everything from all possible resources, give nothing. Here are the real freeloaders and pure opportunists. LRH knew why he made a set up which refuses to apply WOG law to parishioners . Its a free ticket to do everything without having consequences. And of course thats being done to salvage you and the planet. *looooooooooooooooooool

    • Whoahhh! Sidewinder just back up your horse just a tad here!

      If you ever read HCOPL Ethics Justice and The Dynamics you will see that LRH stated that if you violate the laws of the land you are not protected by the codes of a Scientologist or the Church.

      I myself and others I ahve known did apply that and took remedial action that caused the offending party to seek relief from the Church and then finding the Church putting the pressure on him to rectify the matter.
      Of course there was interference from HCO and OSA cause they didn’t want the Bad PR.

      When shown the refference they put the presssure on the criminal with their ranks to handle it all the while ranting and raving how I or some others that applied it were acting suppressive.
      Then when told they were protecting a criminal and why were they doing it they backed off.
      Of course this was during a time when LRH still had some weight on the lines by way of his policies.

      While you may find some confliciting other information this was an option that LRH did provide for the bold , couragious and persons just fed up with that bullshit!
      Problem is now we have too many cowards and punks like Allender.

      • Ok, you talk about ideal scene(Policy). I talk about what is done in fact.
        I`ll be more specific:
        1) refusal to hand out passport because service is not completed.
        2) locking up parishioneers in reg offices, or refuse that they can leave
        of their own will.
        Its illegal: IT is false imprisonment.
        That tells you that policy, orders or flag orders are above WOG law.
        And as long as you are in the box you have to accept it, no matter what.

        Of course the church demands from its members to act legal, but only
        because they are concerned about THEIR PR.

        I observed more: Whenever a Scientologist comes in a situation where his intention, doingness or havingness conflicts with church interest, he is in deep shit. He cannot consult an attorny to come out of the situation
        because he has not the right to threat the church or get the benefits out of THE US CONSTITUTION, which grants him TO HAVE/OWE ASSETS. Read the story of Silvia Kusadas appartment the church tried to buy.
        Holding your position just makes sure the bullterriers bite your ass until you do what they want. (called TR3) or “getting production target done”.
        Once a Scientologist is for example in financial trouble, closes his company, declaring bankrupt or becoming target of IRS suppression he gets a yellow sheet stating: “That he was not able to fulfill the ethical standards of the COS!!
        Isn´t that pervert, sarcastic and inhuman?

        How is he going to handle this ? In a court room?
        No , he is not allowed to do it. He has to leave the church because IN the
        church he is subject of policy.

        A Scientologist and his assets (his dynamics, even their children) are considered to be assets of the COS. Thats the way they act and I don´t care about ideal scene. ARC

        • Sidewinder,
          Thank you for laying this out. I understand what you’ve said. I understand the upset. ME TOO!

          Sincerely,
          Jim

        • Sidewinder, your points are valid and things I have observed myself ,however, when these actions you speak were done in my presence by the societal influences of the cult mentality I at least objected and made it known that legal lines were being crossed.
          My view at the time was that a weak point in that person’s life was being exploited to serve a false idea or worse a sick pleasure in degrading someone.(this looks like the OSA buffoon Allender of course).

          The way I have always read LRH was that if anything subordinates your rights with the end of subjucating you is nothing but implant .
          This would then presuppose the Church of money is an implant station that LRH unwittingly created.
          Perhaps so but it was hijacked and the ease at which it was hijacked points the finger at LRH is the way I see the stones fly.
          I know all about the momentary upsets LRH would have then order something and later reverse it when he cooled off but I have always observed that he corrected himself without apologising too much for the earlier item he revamped.

          I look at his work as an ongoing formulation of working out the best possible scenario in application of tech and policy with the trials and errors accompanying it.

          A mix of Fascism and Communism has been the idelogical practice that I see has evolved within the church of missyscavidge as an operating basis where before instances of it were more subdued.

          Sometimes I look at this scene as an experiment gone awry in the laboratory and whatever culture grew the petri dish needs to be exterminated for the deadly virus that it is and start over.

          My point is that while all these criminal actions have been perpetrated by the church members and staff , the victims of these violations did have an inkling of their rights and allowed it to be overriden by the fascistic influences invloved.
          These are the moments that really tend to abberate one and create charge beyond belief is my exeprience.

          • Old Fox,

            I can’t see why you are giving Sidewinder the time of day.

            He doesn’t back up any of his allegations with any citations of any actual policies or EDs that support them.

            Why waste the type?

            Until he does.

            He is nothing but a troll who belongs more on OCBMB or ESMB than here or maybe even in one of the new “Ideal Orgs” where they accept that Ron supposedly said this and Ron supposedly said that without asking for the actual reference where supposedly said it.

            That is the whole reference not just cutting and pasting a quote.

            Maybe he can raise that flag over there and expect everybody to salute it but we shouldn’t let it happen here.

            • RJ, to answer your question I have my reasons for commenting on Sidewinder’s viewpoint and I acknowledge his right to have it and his response to my comment.
              I welcome your comment in this thread as well.
              When I stated “Perhaps so but it was hijacked and the ease at which it was hijacked points the finger at LRH is the way I see the stones fly.”
              I said that because I ahve seenSidewinder’s view to a greater or lesser degree in a number of articles read and personal statements from others I read or heard.
              The impression I had gotten was that as the current church of money and illegal coercive tactics drags its name gleefully through the mud while they are also splattering mud on LRH with their brand of “salvaging the planet”.
              A glimpse of the future needs to be had after the demise of church of greed and justified criminality
              leaves a confused mess behind .
              Then and only then can some of us can start agree on some semblance of order with respect to LRH’s brand of Scientology.
              Then have the possibility of achieving the real objectives LRH had worked so hard to make available to everyone no matter their station in life.
              As far as wasting time I have never seen a communication that was responded to such as Sidewinder did with mine be a waste as thought was created and exchanged and viewpoints granted beingness without op-terming .
              This is what makes us different from the cult of Miscavidge where this is strictly forbidden.

              • Hey understood sly fox ;)

                Me I’d rather not feed the trolls if I can possibly avoid it.

                As far as I’m concerned giving or receiving communication should be by choice.

                Let’s not assign that philosophy to His Satanic Majesty.

        • (A) Sidewinder: LRH knew why he made a set up which refuses to apply WOG law to parishioners . Its a free ticket to do everything without having consequences.

          (B) Old Fox: If you ever read HCOPL Ethics Justice and The Dynamics you will see that LRH stated that if you violate the laws of the land you are not protected by the codes of a Scientologist or the Church.

          (C) Sidewinder: Ok, you talk about ideal scene(Policy). I talk about what is done in fact.
          That tells you that policy, orders or flag orders are above WOG law.

          @Sidewinder – in (A), you claim Ron Hubbard created (deliberately) the lawlessness of the current scene in Co$.

          In (B), Old Fox demonstrates that Ron Hubbard had no such intention by citing a policy every single staff member was required to study during the Staff Statuses (it’s in OEC Volume 0 – Basic Staff Hat) and, IIRC, it was also found on the Staff Status II checksheet).

          In (C), you describe the current lawless situation. Yet despite (B), you fail to retract the assertion that Ron Hubbard

          Ron Hubbard has been dead since January 1986. He wrote and published to all Scientology staff a policy that explicitly upholds the Law of the Land and which was in effect and was the rule, rather than the exception whilst he was alive.

          The present situation which has arisen in the Co$ where it is now completely the norm to violate “Wog law” whenever that gets in the road of Command Intention (ie – something ordered by David Miscavige), came about under his regime, not Ron Hubbard’s.

          Michael A. Hobson

          • Michael, thank you for yor specific input on that as we knew better then,were were shown better by LRH in his policy and now have no one to blame but ourselves.
            Since the cause has been established that each of us had that power and still have we now elect to exercise it on DM and his thugs.
            Hope you are reading this Dwarfy Boy cause that is the gimmick you used over and over again but it will be firing blanks very very soon.

          • OK, for all of you. I agree with the justice sytem of LRH completely. It was not my intention to attack LRH or blame him.
            I know that WOG law, can be complex, expensive (in the US), stupid, and sometimes suppressive but its not neccessary evil and for sure the constitutions of all democratic country are not. I also understand that LRH wanted to prevent that SCN Orgs can be destroyed by upset parishioners or SP´s while/by sitting in a WOG court room. Thats very good. Good intention. What I wanted to point out is that it has weak points WHEN arbitraries are being entered into the System, or an SP uses
            the System to get rid of everybody who expresses CI`s. A church interest could be an arbitrary. WE WANT SILVIAS FLAT NO MATTER WHAT. Therefore the members of an comm-ev cannot use the system properly to achieve justice because staff followed orders or policy (command intention). The cycle cannot be solved because the comm-ev probably must recommend that high executives should be penalized or make up the damage because it was found that they issued illegal orders. Unreal scene. Free ticket.
            The result is upset SCNists leave the church. In fact right now the report system, the justice system, and all tools to correct it failed
            and I bet its just because of the arbitraries entered from the TOP.

            And if you ask me, the applicable policy of all this ongoing “enforced have (what you don´t desire) and “enforced can´t have” (what you desire) like
            Family,children, money, estates…..ist covered in the policy
            HCOPL PTS Personell and finances.
            But judge yourself if it fits
            ARC

            • SW,

              I completely agree with you and I apologize for calling you a troll.

              Sorry….oops….er….my bad…a thousand pardons.

              I’ll begin my self flagellation shortly and enter a mea culpa ;)

              You are right Scientology ethics and justice can be totally perverted.

              However this is true of “wog” law as well.

              Anybody ever heard of the “‘PATRIOT’ Act” and declaring people “enemy combatants” to get around the Geneva Conventions and the provisions against torture enshrined in the US Constitution regarding cruel and unusual punishment?

              Not to mention the lack of speedy and unbiased justice to all the inmates at X-ray and other “black” sights controlled by the CIA which supposedly has no police powers under its charter and according to the “National Security Act” of 47 and later amendments.

              So I agree we have one of the finest “wog” Justice systems in the world when it isn’t perverted like the Scientology system of justice.

              I think sometimes we get so Scieno-centric at times that we forget how fucked up it really is in the “wog world” at times.

              As far as I’m concerned its far from endless bliss.

              However just like there is in the Church still (though less so now) there are still good people out there who still believe in Justice and the rule of law.

              I’ve met ‘em from practically all branches of Government.

              Fortunately unlike the Church there is still some semblance of “checks and balances” out there.

              Unlike the current incarnation of the Church there in none because it has been turned into an autocratic authoritarian cult where the concept of actual justice is about as foreign as say Standard Tech.

              Anyway again I’m sorry I reamed you a new one Sidewinder and now I actually look forward to reading your posts

              Ml

              RJ

  23. Lori,
    Congratulations!!! You’re free, girl :) Welcome to the *real* world.
    What a shock, eh? So sorry to hear about your kids—that is and has been
    one of the major reasons I speak out, since 2000:

    C of $: Stop Breaking up FAMILIES!

    You sound great.
    Yes! Keep speaking out, and ANY and ALL harassment, file a police report.
    Enjoy and Happy Holidays to you :)

    • Nice to meet ya Tory.
      Yes I will continue to report any abuse.
      Thanks for your support!!
      Happy Holidays and a very Happy New Year! :)

  24. la versione italiana

    Fantastic Story and a very warm welcome to Lori…
    Big hug and love

    Silvia Kusada

  25. Dear Lori
    Another early Christmas present :)
    Thank you so much for taking a stand and speaking out.
    It is quite obvious that our children are valuable to the church only for leverage, blackmail, income and slave labour.
    The church is worse than dead. It is devoid of a soul.
    “When Children become unimportant to a society, that society has forfeited its future”
    - L. Ron Hubbard.
    Wishing you a very Merry, PTS free Christmas surrounded by the love of your family.
    M & M… Your home is a sanctuary for those seeking asylum and recovery from the rabid cruelty and insanity of the church. You salvaged the sanity of my daughter (who has now COMPLETELY recovered from the squirrel auditing she received in the ‘C of DM’). Daily you give us all hope. I have no words. Only ♥

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  27. John Allender is a kool-aid drinker and a complete tool. He’s been trying to “handle” anonymous in the Silicon Valley area for a couple of years. He published a false letter listing made up crimes of anonymous and went door to door in the Los Gatos org area. He’s also attacked former scientologists by using data from their pc and ethics folder, which totally violates priest-penitent priviledge. Here’s a couple of youtube videos of Allender in action (seems pretty crazy for an OT 8):

  28. Lori, what a courageous and pretty girl you are!

    Nobody needs to tell you that you did the right thing – your own sense of freedom is so very obvious throughout your letter that anyone can feel that you know. Here you are, openly communicating, standing in the light.

    There they are (the OSA bots) secretly doing their undercover dirty jobs, afraid to be found. Don’t you feel a bit degraded about what you do? There are too many on this blog who happen to know both sides of this and other heartbreaking stories and they know that the vast majority of you actually is ashamed of themselves. And you should, unless you decide to quit it.

    Boys (I mean, bots) are you afraid of a girl? Then again you have every reason to be. Look at the mild colors this looker is wearing. She’s bound to attract attention wherever she goes. Something you desperately try to avoid – public attention!

    Lori, I tip my hat to a beautiful woman. Beautiful in every sense of the word.
    Wishing you many wild rides on your Honda.

    • Thank you Samuel for the many kind words. I feel your support and it makes me even stronger knowing your on my side.
      Merry Christmas
      And a very Happy New Year!!

  29. “Do you enjoy beatings?” !!! WT f-ing F! Now I think I really have heard it all. While abuse of staff is bad enough, this sort of behaviour to long-term public is blood-boilingly disgusting. Lori, as if you need me to tell you this, but you DON’T DERSERVE THAT.

    Let me say something publicly. 15 months ago I took the decision to distance myself from the “Church”. Of course it was a tough decision, having had a 28-year relationship with CofS both as public and SO staff. The fine people working long days (and nights) at St Hill are not the enemy, they are the victims, they just don’t know it yet. It was tough to effectively say “au revoir” to these many friends, both staff and public. Being onlines at your local Org can seem like a million miles from the madness of the psychosis of life at Int or the RPF. But these good folk are being betrayed horribly day in, day out. It’s no secret that I went on a one-man crusade to alert as many people as possible to the reality of the situation before OSA, via the MAAs started “warning” the local field about me.

    In all these months I have kept my comm lines open – completely open. I have offered meetings with OSA UK, been civil and honest in my comm, and not once bad-mouthed any Org terminal, nor those who have subsequently “disconnected” from me – even though there is, apparently, still no issue on me – just a couple of OSA-sponsored hate pages full of quarter-truths and generalities.

    I guess deep down I hoped desperately that there would be collective awakening of the top brass – a mass reconciliation and a righting of all the wrongs. I know, I must seem very naieve, but somehow it just seemed it could happen.

    I didn’t especially buy “The Church is dead” either, not becasue it wasn’t analytically obvious – it is, but just through a sense of “there must be some hope of its salvation, somehow”.

    Well, there isn’t. The Church IS as dead as a dodo. Just like Graham Chapman in the Dead Parrot sketch OSA, via Minerva, tried to convince me it’s resting, not dead ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vuW6tQ0218 ) . It’s expired, demised, deceased, gone to meet it’s maker. It is a late Church.

    I totally understand the feelings of those who cling on to the wreckage, hoping desperately for a passing ship to stage a miraculous escape. It ain’t gonna happen. Do the decent thing, LEAVE. No reform is going to happen until the rug of support is pulled from DM’s feet. And everyone, staff or public, who stays despite all the indicators that it’s the wrong thing, is simply prolonging the inevitable. Let’s just get it over with, and true Scientology can emerge from the wreckage, just as Lori recently experienced it at Casablanca.

  30. Go girl, Fight back!
    Welcome to freedom,
    and have a merry Xmas.

  31. Lori, thats great your free. I hope your daughter is free as well as your son.

    I do not consider anyone who says to a woman “do you like beatings?” a real man. Its sick, twisted bullying of the lowest order. John Allender, I bet I know how you would respond if someone asked you that question. I can smell your response from here.

    I hope you absolutely document anything done or said to you wioth the authorities. This shit needs to end.

    • I’m assuming John was trying to infer that Marty was the one, asking her if she liked going there to get beatings. That is the OSA line through MAAs – that former Int execs are accusing others of only what they have done themselves, claiming they’re gone now so the beatings stop at Int. Ha! As idiotic as John appears on his videos (probably drilled Tommy D-style), I don’t think he would personally threaten to beat a parishoner, but I could be wrong. Just trying to say how it sounded to me, not that I am defending him in any way. Clearly this guy is chronically around fear and anger, as displayed by his OSA-created paranoia.

      • Steve, you’re probably right about the beatings reference, but you can’t assume that given his actions to block Lori from getting in her car and, now that I’ve watched a couple of the videos posted here, from his body language when speaking to the protestors. wouldn’t result in physical violence. You state that he’s “clearly” chronically around fear and anger. Well, if anyone is prone to physical violence, it’s someone who is around fear and anger. Walking toward someone antagonistically and pointing one’s finger in their face the way John did in one of the videos is, IMO, just a step away from using violence to handle a situation. He must have really felt like a BIG man when approaching Lori in a similar fashion.

      • Steve, I hope your right. Anyone threatening or even suggesting a beating to a woman is anathema.

        And let me add that if I can go to Corpus Christi and get the shit kicked out me and end up looking as good as Lori, sign me the **** up.

        OSA suggesting all is wonderful at INT now that the Rinder-Rathbun tag-team has moved on to the World Wrestling Federation, is the same as the line that it was the GO who were the bad guys and now we have the “OSA” and all is well. It doesnt fly. It doesnt pass the test of time. From where I sit, history is judging the old GO pretty well compared to the current degradation.

        People know the truth when they hear and read it. Marty and Mike have taken ownership for any part they had played or roles they assumed in the twisted culture that INT became and continues to be. They have exposed the situation. I thank them.

        • Loki,
          You’re right about the PR lines, the ploys that DM uses after the fact. It’s the same as what he did with Janet Light on the IAS; he HAS to get ‘stats’ up to make wrong and prove how right he is.

          The posting here of the wonderful stats of Scientology showing so much square footage of building, the number of people who got a mental image picture associated with the word Scientology (impressions made) and how many minutes of applause at Int events are proof positive that DM is right, and all those SPs he’s declared are wrong. It’s just another Mechanism of Miscavige.

          He’ll be dead right shortly. And taking the Church along with him isn’t even conceivable as an issue. HE’S RIGHT!!!!!!

          • Gary Morehead a.k.a Jackson

            Jimbo, another cat out of the bag!!!! I remember his insistence when I was back stage during Shrine and Flag events that Shelly, Lou, George or anyone he deemed competent to run a stopwatch to keep track of those clapping minuets. I believe I used to collect a Thursday after 2 stat report from the musicians when I did stat ev too… Didn’t I Jimmy boy!! Ha! I even remember Tamia, Ronnie or Peter used to address how to make them longer when I’d hang with you guys durin rehersal!

            • Yeah Jackson, but for the musicians applause WAS our stat. From the Apollo days, and LRH. DM taking it is a farce.

              P.S. Mine were up, legitimately. I even took Libs and THAT was one of the SP acts Warren McShane found me guilty of. God, what a farce all this has become. Jackson, I think these guys are tards. It’s almost a crime to pick on them.

              • Jim,
                You must remember – you were entertaining so applause was the feedback, unsolicited and from the heart. Applause to him(DM) is for Int events, briefings and information and the applause is because if they don’t clap, loud and long, then one WILL spend some time in ethics or sec checks handling disagreements on God DM. Obviously, he THINKS he is entertaining. I find him rather disgusting – like the smell of a skunk.

                I swear – I don’t remember anywhere in the OEC, FEBC or Sea Org training where LRH said a leader was to be entertaining. Maybe I should report to cramming up near the cuddly polar bears and you can find my MU’s. Oh hell, it must be overts and a blind spot. Guess I will start with Objectives so I really get it this time. What do you think?

                And, Jim, taking libs is an SP act. Doing anything is an SP act. You weren’t supposed to think for yourself until certified and given permission. I see you are still be yourself – a defiant, free thinking, free roaming thetan with maybe a bit of universal whole track truth hunter blood mixed in. You see, that beingness was outlawed in COB Order 9182-RZ
                Guess you didn’t get the office memo, oh well, enjoy your holidays my friend. DM’s days are numbered. As our friend LRH said “something can be done about it.” He also said “only the Tigers survive.” Growl!

        • Hear, hear!

        • Loki,

          You are so right on babe!

          The Church has turned into a bunch of sick sado-masochists.

          That’s S&M (Scientology & Miscavige) for ya!

          Their next “uniform” should be leather and latex with a whip and a spiked collar.

          Sheeesh!!!!!

          Jim,

          You should know better than saying that Miscavige uses any special mechanism!

          Sometimes the sad duty of cramming the cramming officer used to rest on my shoulders.

          Therefore my suggested cram:

          C/S Series 22

          which covers Dave’s special little mechanism.

          We all bear some responsibility for the Hell Bound Train called RTC run by that psycho engineer Miscavige.

          On that note I’d like to dedicate a tune for those of you left at the Reverse Technology Center:

          An oldie but a goodie ;)

          Oh don’t worry OSA I haven’t forgotten about you.

          Are you guys ready for your next briefing after your failed op on Lori?

          Like Tory says get out now while you still can and grab as many dox on the way out.

          I’m sure Marty will be happy to post ‘em.

          On the Wikileaks of Scientology :)

    • Hi Loki,
      I am documenting and reporting any harassment from COS and I will continue to do so.
      Thanks for caring:)

  32. Hey Toots!
    You are moving right along and looking better than money in the bank–this is so good to see! Speaking of getting back in the saddle again, you know what part of the country to visit but next time bring the whole family.
    I know a little Indian girl that will put you guys up!
    Dean

    • Hi Cowboy Poet!
      You are one Cool Cowboy!
      U inspire me…” Cowgirls don’t cry, ride baby ride…”. I’m back in the saddle and it’s time to take Cruz for another ride.

  33. Now THAT is a success story!

  34. Marty, thank you for being there and auditing; and doing what you do with the intention that the other being rises in ARC, self determinism and happiness. I think it is true that you can judge another’s communication on its tone level. John and Linda Allender were a very nice young couple (and good auditors even in their 20s) back in the day (30 plus years ago), so I’m sorry to hear about this. But the tone level/intention of John’s communication to Lori is completely unnacceptable. The only acceptable communication between beings who want to become more enlightened is comm with decency, compassion, affinity and granting of beingness to the other being.

    • I don’t know John or Linda, but I totally agree with your statement about acceptable communication. Apparently the OSA school of TRs includes “deals mainly in bad news, invalidation and general suppression.” Hmmmm… At the very least you’d think that if they were trying to “save” someone that they would be a bit more inviting in their communication. Apparently the Manners PL (and most other PR references) have been set aside.

  35. Congratulations! Love the pictures too. What a story!!

    Keep a running log of ALL incidents with OSA: phone calls, stalking, threats etc. Write down anything that happens with date and time; the whole incident. Technically it’s called a contemporaneous diary and can be admissible in a court of law when going for a restraining order should OSA be stupid enough to continue bothering you.

    Note to DM: By your group’s own actions, the “church” has become the one thing it resisted………a CULT. If you’d bothered to learn any LRH you would have seen this coming. Remember what LRH says about that which you resist? Think about it.

    • Hi Watching Eyes,
      Thanks for the great tips.
      Yeah! regarding resisting which I’m not doing, but the COS sure is because more and more people are leaving.

  36. Lori, thanks for making this formal statement here. You are definitely a fighter. I have personal experience with SO and non-SO staff acting less than human toward me when I was undergoing chemotherapy and recovery. Behavior that was so shockingly innapropriate – I think that’s part of the strategy, to shock the recipient into silence or compliance or non action.

    When Allander said, “You did some squirreling over the weekend.” wouldn’t it have been fun to have been able to retort, “you’re doing some mighty wild squirreling right now, dumb ass”.

    Thanks again for sharing this bit of your story. I’m pissed again and glad again and determined all over again. Not bad energy to head into the day with.

    • Hi Marta,
      You and I can relate to the injustice the COS gave us when we were down and out. I’m not in that Engram anymore and now I can fight back. It was SICK what the SO did. What happened to treat others how you want to be treated,
      All I can say is Karma!!! :) Lori

  37. Lori,
    This thread on ESMB describes what a father did to get his son out of the SO in ANZO.

    http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthread.php?t=20989

    Maybe it would be useful to you some day, if you suspect that your daughter is not happy in the SO. (It sounds like your son is out, since you refer to him having routed out.) I wish you the best in your new life.
    Ho Tai

  38. Anybody else notice that Independent Scientologist women are HOT?

  39. Welcome to freedom. Just flourish and prosper because it’s the OSA/DM-bots that want you to crawl back to them groveling, doing A-E and begging forgiveness like they have the monopoly of the only technology on Earth. They don’t, they are realizing that Scientology technology is outside their grasp and that scares them for it puts a mirror up and they see themselves for what they are. And if you were in their shoes, you’d understand the terror they must feel on a daily basis. Carry on and do well!

  40. To John, Mark W. and all of you OSA bots you have always and continue
    to look for imaginary WHO’s and WHY’s. Grow up and take some real responsibility. FREEDOM is OURS to have not yours to give!

    Carol

  41. Congratulations, Lori, on reclaiming your freedom! Mosey and Marty just seem to keep sprinkling fairy dust on those whose lives they touch. Hallelujah!

    • Thanks Hallelujah,
      Yeah! Marty and Mosey are quite SPECTACULAR people. I’m so honored to have them as my very special friends.
      Cheers to Freedom!!!!

  42. Lori,Congratulations on being able to complete these cycles in such short order, in spite of the walls being put up by your “friends” who are still drinking the kool-aid. Your example will likely lead them out. Have a wonderful Christmas and I’ll send more cookies!

    Love David

    • Hey there Cookie Daddy!
      Would love some of those yummy cookies. They are the best!!!!!
      You and Carol are so very SPECIAL to me and I love you both to pieces. :) xoxoxoxo

  43. This is the kind of crap that really frosts my ass. I once had to answer an “HCO Summons” because I would not let my 9-year-old child sign a billion-year contract. Waste of my time and, obviously, changed nothing in my mind or intentions. This is the poison inherent in the Sea Org system; “unreasonable” know-nothing zealots driven by naive single-mindedness and “management by statistics”, fed a steady diet of KSW Series One and “hard sell”.

    • “The Sea Org too changed in 1968. It was formed originally to be rough and tough but Scientologists don’t naturally hold such an image. In 1968 the Sea Org became a goodwill activity and an efficient administrative arm of Scientology.” L. Ron Hubbard, Ron’s Journal 68, issued Feb 1969.

      It seems to me, having been in the Sea Org, and reading your post, that the Sea Org needs a return to the above postulate for it. A goodwill activity and an adminstrative arm of Scientology. Not some dramatization of the R6 Bank.

      I don’t care for the ‘New Sea Org’ inaugurated in 1982 by David Miscavige at the San Francisco Mission Holder’s Conference. That is NOT my group. NOT my S.O.

      I am, and will be for some time to come, a Sea Org member as described in RJ 68, within or without any specific locale, and the above is my intention, right along with LRH.

      • Jim
        Right onboard with you shipmate.

      • Jim brings another priceless quote!!! Thanks.

        While listening to the PDC tapes in the 80″s I realized that I consider myself only LRH’s staff and nobody else’s, regardless what org or group I may or may not be a part of. Even though its not a “contract” only I – not even LRH – can cancel it. Never saw this quote but that is what my understanding of being a “staff” was and is.

      • I am with you, Jim. What would it take to put the SEA back into the Sea Org? LRH writes in FO 508 “Being mobile and separate from the pull of land is an absolute necessity to accomplish its plans, missions and purpose: to get ethics in.” The Freewinds is a floating hotel disguising itself as a ‘ship’. Only true sea training occurs on a 3 or 4 masted square rigger. ………Some day…..

      • Jim that was so well put. SO members were my dear friends and they cared. Truly cared. I agree with you about the “New Sea Org”.

      • Jimbo,

        I’m glad you’d like to see the SO go back to its original ideals as stated in RJ 68.

        Personally I’ve since began to view it as the monster that ate Scientology.

        Like the dragon you see in early Chinese art who swallow the Sun to represent an eclipse.

        My qualm is that like the GO the SO served its purpose and now has become counter to the purpose of Scientology.

        (Though I prefer the GO as in the Guardian’s Office over the current abomination known by the sinister name of the “Office of *Special* Affairs which sounds so KGBesque.)

        The beginning of the end as far as I’m concerned was the “Mission Holders Conference in ’82 when the Sea Org “moved in” and proclaimed its unrivaled dominance over the whole Scientology network.

        Yeah they “moved in” alright!

        Like the psycho tenant in the movie ‘Pacific Heights’.

        • RJ,
          Mate, both the Guardian and the Commodore served their purpose. In spades. Those of us who continue that purpose with them haven’t come even close to the end of this here game.

          That includes you ‘non-SO’ and ‘Guardian Apprentice Scientologists’ too.

          The ‘new Sea Org’ is David Miscavige’s. He can have it. I don’t want it. They can’t fish, let alone get on the water.

          • Jimbo,

            Guess I just have a smidgen of BPC on the fact that I was treated like a second class citizen by some SO members just ’cause I wasn’t in the SO and my 2d was raked over the coals because she was a GAS.

            You definitely weren’t one of them.

            Anyway Dave’s land lubbing “Sea Org” will probably end up like the Spanish Armada when they tried to invade England.

            Fish?

            Dave couldn’t catch a fish unless it was on the menu.

      • Gary Morehead a.k.a Jackson

        Jimbo, Sam, Samuel,

        You all nailed it on the head but unbeknownst to all below Int echelon David Miscavige began beating this loyalty out of stated loyal and committed staff and bled it down his command channels!

        The beatings both physically and spiritually delivered would hit artery’s and you could factually see the life pump out of those sadly who took them! That is what I saw and felt in Michelle Yeager the day David Miscavige tore her life and soul apart! That was one black day I will never forget!

        • Jackson
          I am saddened to hear about Michelle Yager, although I suspected as much must have happened to her and many others. I recall it was always wonderful to be in her space. DM is a brutal ass.
          Brazil

      • Lori,
        Welcome to the land of the living and the sane. Enjoy your wins. Nobody can take those away from you.

      • Aye, Mate.

  44. Lori, VWD and welcome!

    Boy, stories like this get my blood boiling and show just how low the current “church” will go to “make it go right”. Instead of offering help to Lori with her physical condition — you know, something any normal church would do — the sharks instead smell blood in the water and circle in to take advantange of the situation.

    The recruitment of kids like this is minimally, in most cases, off policy per HCOPL 9 May 1968 SEA ORGANIZATION PERSONNEL Per this reference, anyone recruited into the SO must be at least a Grade IV Release — Power Release is preferred. But then again, the current “church” lead by the Mother of all Squirrels has a proven track record for not following the writings of LRH . . .

    As for the parking lot encounter, one of these days you OSA bots are going encounter someone who will feel threatened enough to feed you some lead. In Lori’s case, having some guy come up to her in a parking lot, blocking her movement and asking her if she enjoyed beatings, she would have been fully justified in equalizing the situation by using whatever force is necessary to defend herself. Idiots!

    Lori, loved the shot of you with your bike! We’ll have to get together sometime and catch some fat air (dirt bike terminoloty for getting a lot of height on a jump). :)

    • Thank you Freedom Fighter and I would love to
      catch some fat air sometime.
      Riding is such a keyout for me and my husband. It is such a great stress relief!!!!!!!

      • Hi Lori,
        Is your husband out too?

        • Tony,
          Yes! my husband is out. I got remarried in 2006 to a wonderful man that I adore!!!
          He only did a couple services so he was never really in. After he saw what I went through, he never again wanted anything to do with COS. So I wont be losing my husband over this. He is totally 100% backing me!!!!

  45. Awesome Lori! I feel your theta through your writing.

    “Do you enjoy beatings?”

    All I can say to that comment is “WTF!”

    The further you are from COS, the less PTS you become.

    Thanks for the kudos to Marty, it’s nice to hear a real win instead of the scripted crap you’re forced to write in COS just to get through a routing form.

    Much Love to You and Yours,

    FN

  46. Welcome Lori….. you did the right thing and kep yourself strong!!!!.I’m gld you are among us… the independents..

  47. Hi Lori,

    The best thing we can do for our children is to be healthy in mind, body and spirit and you are doing just that.

    Welcome home.
    I send my love, Marsha Pearlman Sorensen

  48. The dm valence guys are so afraid of the idea of being FREE and able to LOOK

  49. OMG Lori,
    Thank heavens your out and away from those bastards! Do NOT tolerate a damn thing from these guys. They have no real power, their influence is fading, the world DM has made for himself is unraveling at the seams all around him, and for them… it’s only going to get worse. Please do not let their crap blow over onto your lines.

    Stay strong, stick to your guns and don’t be afraid to reach out for a hand when you need it, because you are surrounded by friends here! VWD and best of luck to you in the future! And it’s a bright one I am sure. :)
    John B

    • Hi John B,
      I will stay strong because now I’m not alone anymore. I have all of you Indies and what a MAGNIFICENT and VIBRANT group we are!!!!!
      “JUSTICE IS COMING!!”

  50. Great you made it out Lori.

    For anyone subject to this type of harassment I recommend something akin to this: http://www.videopenrecorder.com/

  51. So pathetic. Despite a wealth of technology available, it boils down to some weird parking lot encounter. As Deep Throat would say, ‘follow the money…’

  52. Thanks for coming out publicly, Lori. I know that it took much thought. I wonder why it is that as Scientologists we were so indocrinated to put up with this suppression. If you worked at a “wog” job and were interrogated, stalked, called 5 times a day for donations, events, etc, this would be instant lawsuit, settlements, jail time etc.

    If you sue the “church” for this stuff you are bucking up against money and a big machine.

    What if, we started calling the police on the individuals?
    What if we started filing lawsuits on the individuals at the “Church”
    What if we started filing restraining orders on the individuals?
    What if we started using the law to handle the individuals that are pushing the suppression from the “church”

    Would you want to stay on staff at a Mission or Org if you had the potential of being sued personally? Missions and Orgs do not have the money to defend the staff member. The staff member would then be declared PTS. This could bring the mothership down.

    If anyone comes to my house or business, I am filing charges. I do not care whom it is.

    Very well done on coming out! This is helpful to all of us!!!!!!

    • Thank You Daisy,
      Together we can stay strong and support one another. That is what real friends do!!!!!!!
      Have a very Merry Xmas!!

  53. Lori! Congratulations on your new found freedom and for sticking to your personal integrity, no matter the pressure. Very impressive. I wish you the very best!

    With love,
    Amy

    • Hi Amy,
      You are a wonderful example of COURAGE!
      Thanks for being there and having so much COMPASSION!
      You really helped me through some rough times and I forever will be grateful!
      Lots of Love, Lori

  54. Welcome Lori! That is quite a story. I am so happy you are winning again!
    Thanks Marty and Mosey, for doing what you do.

    • Thank You Tom,
      It’s great to be happy with myself again.
      My INTEGRITY is so in and I’m not violating it anymore!
      Nothing is better than that!!!!

  55. Congratuatlions, Lori! Aside from those ridiculous things that were said to you, I cannot fathom the lack of havingness and lack of game OSA has by reason of the fact that they have nothing better to do than track down a lone pc or pre-OT who should not be particularly significant if they were thriving or even respectably running a happening operation. It is SO lame. I wonder how many other people they employed tracking you. In no way do I mean to diminish your importance in this analogy, but this is sort of like an NFL team hiring resources to spy on the water boy of their next opponent. And then to threaten the water boy.
    I am going to make a suggestion and that is that Tom Cruise reprise the role of Maxwell Smart from “Get Smart” and DM could play the Chief. They could have Gold put togther a new Cone of Silence. Katie could finally find herself by playing Agent 99 where she would emerge as the smarter of everyone.

    • Metaqual,
      Thank you and I like your suggestion.
      When I was under the radar my husband nicknamed me “GET SMART”. We laughed all the time!!
      I’m so glad I don’t need to play that game anymore.

  56. Lori,
    Marty recently directed me to PAB 91, The Anatomy of Failure ( I heartily forward his recommendation to all!) and I’d say by that theory and practice you are winning!

    Mr. Allender, I’d say you ain’t winning so much. Not in this game with Lori, Marty, and the rest of us independent types. No worries. Get with LRH’s Scientology, study up. Listen to RJ 68 (write and I’ll get you a copy) and you can get on board the real game of Scientology. Right now, you are playing something else that only appears to be that game. It isn’t.

    Lastly, Lori, I’m a Honda guy too!! A ratty old, stripped down, GL 1200.

  57. Lori,
    One thing I saw after I stepped back is that there is a lot of verbal tech in the Church. A lot of how people act and actions they take in the Church are not to be found in LRH writings. When you compare some of it to LRH it really doesnt match up. The way the recruiters and others handled you is an example. One might say “show me why”, “Show me where that written”, “show me the LRH to back up your actions”.

    • DFB….
      Yeah! your right a lot of verbal tech or out tech and they should have been quiet when one is still in an Engram!!!!

      • If they were harassing you and invalidating you after a major surgery while you were still taking pain medication, thats totally out. That person should be declared for suppressive squirelling. They are not a Scientologist. Your C/S, auditor or anyone at your org who was an actual Scientologist should have handled that suppressive crap with a vengeance.

        • Yeah! It was very Suppresive!!
          I was only home from Hospital for 4 days and on a high number of pain pills, couldn’t even walk and in excruciating pain!!! My husband saw me crying hysterically due to the recruiting cycle and called my EO for help.
          The EO told my husband who is not a Scientilogist, “there’s nothing I can do”. My husband couldn’t think with this comm. The whole cycle was Completely out Tech!!!

  58. Awesome story — well done on getting your life back and making all the right decisions. Looking forward to hearing more!
    Steve

  59. Lori;

    Welcome to the ranks of the top of the crop – the free,the Indies!

    ML Tom

  60. Well done, Lori!

    Keep your integrity IN from here on out and report anything to the authorities.

    CofS has no right to send a large man out to scare a single woman. He’s probably trying to make up for having a small penis.

    This Allender dude will have a lot to be sorry for once he cognites.

    • Hello Idle org!
      I’m a tough girl!
      I ride my Honda with the big boys.
      No wimping out on those scary rides.
      John Allender isn’t as tough as some of the Black Diamonds I’ve been on in Hollister. :)
      :

  61. Lori,
    Great to see another bright and smiling face, independent of Reverse Tech. In seeing the YT videos of this “8″ John Allender sure shows that he’s pretty well versed in applying reverse tech and black Dianetics – total footnuke technology -as applied by Dear Leader, flying monkeys and minions. Their intentions are quite clear & don’t really communicate nor help anyone.

    • Where did he get that? John Allender, what LRH supports your actions in those videos? Show me, or figure out yourself what you are basing your actions on if you need to. Where did you get this “tech”?
      If you don’t know and cant show me the LRH that may be a problem John.
      For me anyway, and I consider myself a Scientologist.

      Something to look at John.

  62. Thank You everyone for welcoming me and all your support!!!
    It feels great to be a part of the WINNING team. “GO INDIES”
    Maybey for my next Enduro race I will put Indy 63 on my Honda.
    AND
    For the record both of my children are out of the SO. :)

  63. Lori, welcome to life on the outside, and well done for standing up to those bullies. You have the glow of freedom. Every time a person leaves, the Church loses more and more power over the lives of others.

  64. I really admire your courage Lori. Freedom is so precious. Most of us in the the USA and western Europe have had it for so long we take it for granted. Stories like yours show how precious it is. You are a worthy inheritor of the values in the Declaration of Independence and other documents written by our founding fathers.

    • Thank you Jane,
      We have to stick up for our rights and fight back!!
      Lying low and waiting for “WHATEVER”
      Just didn’t work for me. Now I truly feel at cause and what a GREAT place to be! :) Lori

  65. Lori, Dirt Bike Queen! Thankful both your kids are out safely! Phew, had me worried!

  66. Lori,
    I am so glad that you had a wonderful friend in Carol! The Bay Area seems to be heavy in to the kool-aid and I am sometimes curious as to whether or not they would even look for the truth. I have always held a special desire that my Bay Area friends would wake up. But, there is a heavy air of sensorship of anything that didn’t originate from the local org or mission.

    As I look at the videos above, I see John, Mark, Geoff and Angel wearing huge blinders which prevent them from acknowledging anything but their own ideals putting them at the top of my sheeple list. I am CERTAIN that they would not support the church if they honestly knew what was going on with DM. They don’t want to know the truth as it would make them very wrong, dead wrong.

    They have been the enforcers, so to speak. They are not like those in the SO who are threatened continuously and take on the winning valence in order to survive. They are free to come and go as they please. They have families and meet with friends when they want. But, with all of this freedom, they still lack the freedom to LOOK. I am sure they have been “briefed” on all of the latest situations but I’d bet not one of them really looked with the intention to observe, unbiased and with their integrity in, anything beyond what they have heard inside their local DSA offices. They have delusions that they are somehow protecting Scientology from its (self created) enemies.

    You have a wealth of freedom now. You have in essence taken the stops out of your life and you can fly free once again. They are only trying to push in your anchor points. Use your new found comm lines to hold your position in space and time. It really gets better and better as time goes on and one day you wake up and realize you are no longer the effect of them. They really can’t harm you at all. And a little later, you hope that one day they too will have the ability to see.

    You have LRH at your disposal and you are free! This IS something to celebrate! What a beautiful Christams gift you have given yourself!

    • Karen B, I have to say you are spot on.

    • Karen B, WOW! Your words are very inspiring. I feel the same way and hope they all will really look and see the truth. Who cares about being wrong or right this is are chance to stand up for our Freedom!!! Come on people courage is empowering and it feels Great!!!!

  67. Well, well I just got a phone call from David Labow, the slime who works according to him for Elliott Abelson. He wanted to know all about Marty and I told him to call Marty himself. He said, “I have talked to Marty, but I want to know what is he calling his services?…I told him “I don’t talk about Marty or anyone and he should call Marty”. He says, “why didn’t it go well…again I said call Marty if you want to know anything about Marty, have a nice day, bye bye.

    • They sure seem pretty worried about someone who they say is a no good-non-producer. If he was so unimportant I doubt that they would spend so much time and money on him.
      I would say that a person who could get such a large movement all fired up and working to put ethics in on a group gone whacko was one sane and able guy..
      If you can’t beat him, join him!!

    • If David Lebow is now calling Carol in an attempt to get something on Marty, this tells me that dude is worried about his job. What worth does he have to his employer if he can’t dig up any dirt? None.

      note to Lebow: Ever hear of the saying, “There’s no honor among thieves”? The second you stop being the useful idiot, you’ll be on the unemployment line. Even you need to bail.

      • Is anyone else getting emails from auto260@hushmail.com ? They try to trash Marty and Mike , its pretty lame really but here’s a bit for your amusement:

        Marty Rathbun and Mike Rinder have now built a record of abusing
        their own followers. Reports are now coming in
        regarding dissatisfied clients that are outraged about Rathbun’s
        off-beat practices. The information is coming in in
        volume and it will get posted as it gets processed.

        Talk about generalities!!!!…Thats a suppressive action in itself. Must be a case of the actual squirrels screaming because they can’t stand to see OTs being made. Go Marty!!!

        • Lise, and to Carol,
          Seems David and his handlers just don’t duplicate some basic LRH.
          Here’s a little taste of the treats LRH left us. I will quote it.

          LRH ED 88 INT 9 March 1969 INJUSTICES
          “As you will see by HCO Pol 24 Feb 69, JUSTICE we know that False Reports are the main cause of injustice.
          They are also the cause of down stats.
          False reports about staff members that bring about discipline of another are heavily actionable.
          Although the Sea Org is not now sending out many org investigatory missions, when it does they will be operating only to put in HCO Pol Ltr of 24 Feb 69 and get the false reports out of the area and find the inventor of them.
          This should greatly help any area to recover. But there is no real reason the area itself can’t do it.
          Injustice is a hot button. We ourselves in Scientology are subjected to duress only by false reports coming from very aberrated vested interests who are terrified we will steal their shaky monopoly on the insane.
          We see that society reeks with false reports. Knowing what lies are printed about us, we can only assume that the adjacent columns are equally false.
          Aberration is derived from false data.
          Therefore false reports can almost spin an organization in.
          19 years ago we did a lot of work trying to run “group engrams.” All this time later (for us) we have the answers. They are 3rd Party Actions and False Reports. These cause a group to go downtone and downstat.
          These also are the basic cause of war.
          They must also be a basic cause in insanity.
          An org would recover from any slump if it carefully isolated within its group any and all false reports on one another and got HCO Pol Ltr 24 Feb 69 fully followed.
          This is another road to truth.
          Best, Ron L. Ron Hubbard Founder”

          In light of this reference – those of you creating the false reports are spinning in your own organization and causing it to go downtone and downstat. I, personally, would put you in the “…false reports coming from very aberrated vested interests who are terrified we will steal their shaky monopoly…” and you represent and work for or are part of the “very aberrated vested interest”.

          Fact is you don’t have a monopoly on truth. You never did. Neither do you have a monopoly on eternity. Our eternity started way before this day and will continue long after your current body has been eaten to pieces and long gone. We always have our eternity. You didn’t give it to us, you only control it with our agreement and tacit approval, and neither can you mold us to fit your own weird game.

          Any OT (such as John Allender), who thinks he can threaten another being into giving up their personal integrity is sick and out-ethics. There is ZERO pan determinism shown by that activity. It appears OT’s working for OSA have gone from mest – to infinity – and now back to mest. Sorry guys, end game, you lost. Those spamming email with false data, the same – end game, you lost.

          Why don’t you win in life as we, in the Independent Scientology, world do. It is simple. Discontinue present time overts, read, duplicate and apply the LRH tech to your life. You will find when you do this that conditions change for the better and life is fun. Then, you can enjoy some of the many fruits of LRH’s legacy.

          • LRH ED 88 INT by itself

            LRH ED 88 INT 9 March 1969 INJUSTICES

            “As you will see by HCO Pol 24 Feb 69, JUSTICE we know that False Reports are the main cause of injustice.

            They are also the cause of down stats.

            False reports about staff members that bring about discipline of another are heavily actionable.

            Although the Sea Org is not now sending out many org investigatory missions, when it does they will be operating only to put in HCO Pol Ltr of 24 Feb 69 and get the false reports out of the area and find the inventor of them.

            This should greatly help any area to recover. But there is no real reason the area itself can’t do it.

            Injustice is a hot button. We ourselves in Scientology are subjected to duress only by false reports coming from very aberrated vested interests who are terrified we will steal their shaky monopoly on the insane.

            We see that society reeks with false reports. Knowing what lies are printed about us, we can only assume that the adjacent columns are equally false.

            Aberration is derived from false data.

            Therefore false reports can almost spin an organization in.

            19 years ago we did a lot of work trying to run “group engrams.” All this time later (for us) we have the answers. They are 3rd Party Actions and False Reports. These cause a group to go downtone and downstat.

            These also are the basic cause of war.

            They must also be a basic cause in insanity.

            An org would recover from any slump if it carefully isolated within its group any and all false reports on one another and got HCO Pol Ltr 24 Feb 69 fully followed.

            This is another road to truth.

            Best, Ron L. Ron Hubbard Founder”

            • Wonderful reference Sapere. Just wonderful. More of the truth on the lines to dispel the false lie that exists and persists. Be gone lie!

              • Jim, RJ, Halleluja, Scot and Karen B.

                Thank you. This fits with my earlier posts about Snow White and why I felt handling false data and false reports was behind the 4th dynamic engram. LRH really wanted Snow White completed. The basic behind the false data is the true enemy of Scientology. Today we see it in the current regime. Tomorrow it could be another regime or group. The minute details might change but the basic behind this doesn’t.

                I posted earlier the reference about the bank is only made of un-analyzed data. This is where false data enters the chain.

                I must say, the group dynamic here creates a totally new universe. I had not always put these references and data together. Here, one person posts a viewpoint and data for it, I read and duplicate, then someone else’s post. The ability to shift viewpoints and duplicate and look at things from a different light occurs VERY quick. The open forum allows us, as a group, to change ideas and thoughts very very fast.

                Thus, all of us, continually create this group and being active in the group we are also changing. I get wins reading LRH, but I get even more reading LRH and being part of this group. It fills in the others flows. It is a good thing.

                Speed of particle flow alone creates power. That is why we are powerful – that is why we are feared. That is why we will win on this road and journey down the path of truth.

                Thanks for being there guys and gals. It is a pleasure to be able to participate. Ciao for now.
                Sapere

            • Sapere,

              Thanks for posting this man.

              It’s a key out to read it again.

              The PAC totally operates on the complete inverse of this RED.

              They were totally operating on secret hidden false reports just before I left.

          • Sapere Aude — G*R*E*A*T reference! Thanks for sharing!! H

            • SA,

              Fantastic reference. One can think of so many examples in life of this exact phenomena.

              False reports causing injustice and down stats. A more simple why cannot be found.

              Thank God your here with us, Sapere – an order of brilliance on par with yet different from – dare I say it? — JIM LOGAN.

              With both of you guys keeping us on the straight and narrow “great middle path” (how’d ya like that piece of tortured logic, Marty?) there’s no way we can lose.

              Scott

          • Outstanding post! Excellent reference!

        • Lise,

          All who receive mail from
          auto260@hushmail.com, should click the forward button and send to
          Abuse@hushmail.com
          with the word SPAM in the body of the Email.
          Hushmail is on the ball for misuse of their service.
          #####
          Note that they have nothing on M and M ~~ NOTHING.
          They claim that futuristically they will have SOMETHING, but currently, they have nothing.

          Like DM’s INT events of futuristic “IDEAL ORGS”. No actual product. Hot air and huffing and puffing.

          • Thanks Karen.

            • as I said a few posts back, the very thing that is going to take down DM is their illegal and bad practice for intel and harassment. They may think they are above the law, but all the small things like email spamming with add up to something very big in due time!

    • That call was an obvious effort to discover if Marty is “advertising” his services as Scientology. As Marty no doubt realizes, he can practice anything he likes but he cannot “trade” on the “trademarked” terms.

    • Interesting that the slime can get your phone number easily. If your phone is on the “do not call” list, and he (Ableson & Lubow) have no business calling you, it could be reported – soliciting for Mestology, suggesting you change brands.

    • David has been a busy man this evening–he just called me.
      Had my wife given me access to this before the phone call, I would have played it for him and Davey.

      • You had me laughing out loud with that video. I played it. Then when I x’d out it kept on playing anyway. Hilarious. Lebow hasn’t called me yet but maybe there are just too many “Eyes” in the phone book. That’s right, OSA; Eyes is my last name.
        Let’s be real here. Lebow IS stupid to be doing what he’s doing. How could he not realize he’s being used? When they’re done with him they’ll toss him out like yesterday’s news.

      • Cowboy, you have a way with words…love it! Yo Lebow get a real job!

      • Dave Miscavige/IAS/CofMestology -

        I got some change in my pocket, but it wasn’t enough, so fuck you – oooooo.
        Now I’ve got the Bridge, you ain’t so tough, so fuck you -ooooo.

  68. Lori, this story moved me as no other. As a mother, I am sure this is a very painful period for you. But, you honored your integrity and we celebrate you for this!!

    Welcome and I hope life in the fresh air will help heal the pains you have experienced!!

    • Thanks Gretchen,
      I love my kids more than anything!!! They are both very special and able beings.
      They know I love them with all my heart and no matter what happens they will always have me here loving them unconditionally!!!! One day they will see their mom had the Courage to stand up for what is right!!!

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  70. Lori,
    Congratulations on your new found freedom and keeping your integrity in! :D Very happy to have another great new Independent.
    Much love,
    Christie

    • Thanks Christie,
      Every day gets better and better!!!
      I love all my new friends.
      What a theta group the Independents are. This is how it should be. :)

  71. Here we go, auto260@hushmail.com spam. More bullshit from the bullshiters hitting our emails. I’d say we are getting some TA!

  72. Glad to hear you are out Lori. Sounds like you started the same time as I did in the same location. We probably know the same people. I post as Daisy on all other boards. There is someone who posts as Daisy here but that is not me.

    • M Greene,
      Email me if u like. I was on staff at Stevens Creek Mission back in 1978-1983. Fulfilled my 5 year contract then went to college and graduated from Chico State. We can talk about the good old days before the ’82 mess.

  73. Hello Lori,
    My most sincere congratulations on your WINS, decision and public statement! It is a sad commentary on the SO recruiters, that they have degraded themselves to this level of invalidation and suppression. I personally joined the SO when I was 17 and did not like it at all. I requested to route out, did conditions and was out the door. Living conditions were horrible and it was nothing like described. I’m in Northern California also. If you would like to get in comm, feel free to send me a note! Also, a special ack on your wins in your recent auditing!
    Marty, Wow…!

    With admiration,
    Penny
    afsharlady@aol.com

  74. Lori,
    Welcome and glad you’re winning.
    My 15 year old was to be recruited to the SO about 1 1/2 year ago. Not one SO terminal ever contacted my spouse or I. When my child asked for some money for the the plane fareto Flag and basic nessecities I told my child that if the SO dosen’t even consider the parents then they need to take full responsibility for you now and since I had their auditing and training paid for I said great they can also pay for your Bridge now and we can use the extra intensives anyway. And instruct my child to ask when will they be assigned an auditor to finish the current Grade they were in the middle of and make sure you get it in writing. Well my child was aware enough to spot the indicators and out points (lies) from the SO recruiter and told him to wait till they their current auditing and high school was finished and would reconsider. My child ended up having to change their cell phone number to stop the calls from the SO recruiter.

    Now when I get calls asking for them

    • disregard the last line. I can go on. I don’t want to infect the Theta win of the main post.

      Nice job Lori & Marty….Mosey too.

  75. Hi Lori – wow, thanks for your story and you look wonderful back in your saddle! Thank you Marty and Mosey for all that you do. Yes, they are wonderful hosts and the food is more than you can ever imagine!

  76. Hi Lori-

    Thanks for this announcement. I got into Scientology about a year ahead of you at the Davis Mission. I’m from the Bay area as well. Glad to hear that things are going better for you and that you were able to connect with Marty.

    Mark

  77. Utterly stupendous. At this rate, the planet will be CLEAR of the Church of Spies & Liars before the next decade is through. Bravo, Lori!

  78. Lori if I were you I’d print out friendsoflrh.org and start reading it to him next time he comes around. He’d try to distract but just keep reading and hold a camera in his face. He’s all puffed up on false ethics presence.

  79. I don’t have any more of my materials but isn’t there something about some girl getting squirrel auditing in Keeping Scientology Working and the squirrel auditor was physically abusing her? Maybe this is what Allender means.

    • I think the “Dead Agent” materials he has read on Marty are that Marty was the one who did all the beatings or some such thing. Theres a recording of Tommy Davis saying this.

      So I’m guessing that either he has not seen any other data, or he has chosen to believe what Tommy Davis says in this clip.
      I wouldn’t link it, but I think it’s one piece of evidence that needs to be confronted by any Scientologist, independent or not. This is the spokesperson of the Church of Scientology.
      That clip alone should tell anyone that there something very wrong with the church.

    • Allender is a bit confused, as all PTSers are. The only one ever known to have hit his pc in session is Davey himself; it’s so out reality that even KSW doesn’t talk about it. Of course, dealing in recrimination only, the SP accuses his opponents of the very crimes he himself is guilty of. Hypnotised bots only have one source of information and can only talk the talk that is slammed down their throats by their slavemaster, who in this case happenes to be a bigot and professional hater of auditors.

    • KSW1 doesn’t state who was abusing whom:

      “I recall one student who was squirreling on an Academy course and running a lot of offbeat whole track on course students after course hours. The Academy students were in a state of electrification on all these new experiences and weren’t quickly brought under control, and the student himself was never given the works on Seven, Eight, Nine and Ten so they stuck. Subsequently, this student prevented another student from being straightened out and his wife died of cancer resulting from physical abuse.”

      What Allender probably means, as others have pointed out, is that he believes the kool-aid version that M&M were incessantly beating the crap out of everyone else at Int until they (M&M) left. So therefore Lori must have have the crap beaten out of her while visiting South Texas.

      It’s really nothing more than him being a whiny kid pointing fingers on the playground and attempting to introvert Lori.

      • It is a lot more than that. Have your 2D subjected that treatment and then call it “kid pointing fingers.”

        • I guess it’s not about right or wrong or winning or losing. It’s about suppresive evil purposes and hate. Wanting to destroy another person at whatever cost. That is the leader of the Church of Scientology- David Miscavige. A person who hates and destroys yet covers it with the smooth vaneer of a used car salesman. What tone level is that?

          • My personal opinion is that DM’s social tone is 1.1 on a good day. Social, mind you, 1.5 on a bad day.
            His chronic tone I believe fluctuates around the below levels from what I have read.

            BLAME- (PUNISHING OTHER BODIES) DM’s home planet.
            But he does move on the tone scale and appears to enjoy these tone levels also.
            CONTROLLING BODIES
            PROTECTING BODIES (he thinks, in all his delusional grandeur)
            OWNING BODIES
            APPROVAL FROM BODIES
            SACRIFICE
            HIDING
            [taken from the DIANETICS and SCIENTOLOGY TECHNICHAL DICTIONARY, by L. Ron Hubbard]

      • Hello Splog,
        Yeah! Allender may have introverted me a little, but he really Pissed me off!! So I let the Authorities know and exposed him out in the open. He messed with the wrong girl!!!!!!!!!

  80. DM sucks.

  81. Maybe Lori wasn’t being stalked at Marty’s. It would come to no surprise that Marty himself is being stalked and it is being reported who shows up. Take a few pictures and send them out to DSA’s to see if anyone can ID. Then the local DSA goes out to harass the person when he or she returns.

  82. Lori, next time a ‘John Allender’ confronts you ask him exactly what LRH reference he is using to justify his actions.
    I also want to acknowledge your wonderful story and your admirable confront in your accomplishments. Extreme sportsters have more confront than any OT VIII I know and you yourself in standing up to your personal integrity. Especially one who gets knee replacements just so she can get back in the saddle again. You’ve got the guts and stamina of a real LRH OT. Keep on keepin’ on making it go right!!!!
    I do remember you from the Bay Area! I’ll get in touch.

  83. ΘTater/GaryLerner

    Hi Lori!! Welcome to the Greatest Theta Show On Earth! Very Well Done on getting your freedom back and on your wins with Marty and Mosey’s Tejas hospitality.

    Many, many happy wishes to you and your family and to your Independence!

    Love and ARC,
    Gary

  84. THANKS LORI FOR SHARING YOUR STORY. YOUR COURAGE IS HEARTENING. I WISH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY THE BEST. AND THANKS ESPECIALLY TO YOUR FRIENDS CAROL, MARTY AND MOSEY.

    COLWELL

  85. Firebreathing Frog

    What are you doing Lori?
    Stoping your kids to join the most ethical group on the planet?
    After all, they are not really your kids, they are Thetan!
    That’s the kind of crap I got from SO recruiters starting interviewing my kids.
    Well, I started hatting them on all the off-policies actions the staff were involved, starting with all these illegal donation, showing them the right reference, etc.
    When I started Scientology, it was fun.
    Not anymore – I don’t want my kids in the SO, but I do want them to do Scientology and get the wins.
    Not an easy education to get to your kids.
    Love you

    • Hi Firebreathing Frog,
      Great name I love it!!
      Yeah! I went through that too and I have seen other moms be objected to that BS.
      Good job on holding your viewpoint. Stay strong!!! :) Lori

  86. I need to get this out, and don’t know a more appropriate location on this site, so here goes:

    I’ve just now remembered that toward the end of the sixth grade, a teacher passed around a vial of nitric acid, with the admonition that nobody open the vial and contact the acid. Of course, the *very* predictable happened: a girl was dared into putting a drop on her finger.

    Did we *really* need to see the label on the bottle? Or was this a herd-thinning exercise?

    Why was it neccesary for an eleven year old girl to watch her finger melt off? Was it just recklessnes or neglect by the teacher?

    The only other thing I can think of is that this was an exercise in Group Psychology. No specific instruction was given to contact the Nitric Acid, in fact quite the opposite, but the reaction this provokes in that age group is entirely predictable. The intent was to burn that memory in deep, so that if we ever stumbled upon the stuff in the wild, we gave it SERIOUS respect and distance. And called for Dad.

    Thing is, this borders on ethics that are illegal, even when testing on *prisoners*.

    What are your thoughts?

  87. Firebreathing Frog,
    One of my friend’s 18 year old daughter getting “handled” on wanting to have kids was told “thetans don’t have kids, bodies have kids”.

    Lori,
    Isn’t it funny how you can go along with the program for years, being a good Scientologists and the moment you oppose your underage committing to a billion years (Gee, they’re not even lawfully allowed to enter any contract) all your years of service is completely null and void. And isn’t it funny how you’ve told yourself again and again to “just suck it up, I’m tough, I can deal with it, I’m looking at the big picture” whenever you’ve had injustices and insanities thrown your way, but man, when it’s your kids, then that grizzly mama comes up in you, “don’t you dare harm my cubs” kind of thing. I’m a mother of 4, I hear you so loud and clear.

  88. Hi Lori,
    Congratulations on your wins in auditing, and your FREEDOM as an Independent Scientologist. It is a wonderful ride (pun intended), and now you will Flourish and Prosper as never before! The friendships and the support you get from the Independent Field are like none other. It is truly a NEW CIVILIZATION, and a microcosm of what a cleared planet would really be like. All of us have been tested by fire, just like you have, and we have been forged into a sword stronger than Excalibur! We are making huge swaths into the out-ethics, out-tech , and out-admin left behind by the C of DeMonology.
    Enjoy the ride of your life, and soar like an eagle!!!
    Much love to you and your children,
    Catherine Von Ach

  89. Lori;
    I was so pleased to learn your children are not longer in the SO & that you are free of the supression coming from all directions within the COS. My wife asked me a profound question last week. Your post about how the SO worked so hard to steal your children from you gave me pause because of her question.
    She said, we have always said that, “when we drop our bodies we should avoid the bright light and go find a pregant Scientologist so we will be in a safe place next lifetime and be able to continue on the bridge”. This question followed with another question (the profound one): “Now what do we do?”
    Lori , I did not and do not have an answer for my wife’s question. If we pick a Scientology family who’s to say we won’t be fed to the SO (The Lions) at a young and vulnerable age.

    I’m very relieved, your free but the question remains. What about our next life. I don’t mean to pour cold water over your wins but your story really got me to thinking about tomorrow.
    Have a very Merry Christmas with your kids, enjoy your well earned independence and please wear the best knee pads money can buy before you get back on your Honda dirt bike.
    One more item. For a woman of 47 with two kids you ROCK GIRL.

    • Hello Jack Airey,
      Answer to your question on the next life.
      My next life is going to be incredibly awesome!!!
      Maybey my Honda will have super jets (lol)
      Thank you for your concern on the knee pads. I wear $500 red kick ass knee pads!! ;)

  90. Lol, Jack, tell your wife that the SO will be just a bad memory by that time!

  91. Lori,

    Your story struck a few nerves with me!

    My daughter (15 at the time) was threatened that if she didn’t sign an SO contract I would be RPF’d as a result. Even though I was in the SO, I was working to make sure she got an education before she would enter into the SO. So finally after my push back for years, the way they got her in was to threaten her as the cause of my RPF assignment. (she has since routed out).

    To have to fight off recruiters from taking your children is stressful enough under other circumstances, but to have to deal with something like this after knee replacement surgery is surely an over-the-top experience. My God, someone just sawed off your bones! And then to be told you are out-ethics for taking pain killers???? Again, it just points out over and over again how delusional Radical Scientologists are – how disassociated from life. Knee replacement surgery is considered one of the most violent and painful surgeries to be performed. It can drive a person to addiction to pain killers as the pain last for so long and is so intense. Infection is a real risk and extremely dangerous. I was appalled to read about the utter disregard these people had for you and your condition, and for your sense of parenting. To go after you the way they did to submit you to their will when you were at such a disadvantage is how can I say it ?—sooooo “scientological”!

    So glad you found Marty and that he has helped you so much.

    • Wow! Freespirit you really duplicated my intense knee surgery. It was very rough because my 1st surgeon screwed up and put 2 sizes too big of an implant in. This added to the severe pain even on the high dose of pain pills.
      Plus the recruiting it was a nightmare. That is why I couldn’t talk about it for a while. Then 6 months later after a specialist saw that the implant was too big, I had to go back in and have the old one taken out and the new one put in. A 5 hr surgery. Now I’m the Bionic girl with a titanium knee.
      I’m so glad I found Marty too!!!!!!

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