In late 2003 I came back to the Scientology Inc international headquarters near Hemet California after eighteen consecutive months away on a variety of missions. I have described the experience before as like having returned to the set of Apocalypse Now. David Miscavige was well on his way toward complete madness. Already he had all International Scientology Managers engaged in marathon group confession sessions. Already he was beating people physically almost daily and by then had at least a dozen lower level executives doing the same to their staffs.
Miscavige would go into several hour rambling rants (sort of like Al Capone meets Colonel Kurtz) with all of international management required to sit attentively around a table watching and listening to him.
Don’t get me wrong, a lot times Miscavige’s soliloquies would cover imporant lofty issues like “enthusiasm” and “teamwork”.
But, a seed that had been sown years before was beginning to take root in my mind by late 2003. That was a forbidden thought which began to come off suppress the more violent and insane Miscavige’s suppression became. That was, after Miscavige had literally accused every executive on the base of “black PRing L Ron Hubbard” (saying or doing something that conveyed the idea that something just wasn’t right with the man), after having offloaded many dozens of staff to gulags for having allegedly committing that crime, after enduring dozens of multiple-hour “conferences” – punctuated with sudden, unexpected violence – where Miscavige rambled on that theme, the truth began to crystallize.
The truth became even more clear when I saw what Miscavige resorted to during his occasional, fleeting moments of fear of losing his terror grip on the group of international managers subjected to his sick fantasy. When I saw that fear flash for a moment in his eyes, he resorted to words to this effect:
“Yeah, you sit there in your filthy, motivator-infested blackness thinking ‘LRH wasn’t like that’. I’ve got news. I am mild compared to L Ron Hubbard. And if you have a little evil-purpose festering along the lines of ‘I don’t have to take this shit from COB’, think again. Think this, what is LRH gonna do when he finds out how you’ve been fucking with COB? Because L Ron Hubbard is coming back sooner than you might think. And I can guarantee you of one thing, LRH is not going to be nearly as reasonable and merciful as I am.”
At that moment the truth became crystal clear: the fellow who had destroyed the lives and reputations of hundreds by hanging them with the alleged crime of “black PRing LRH”, was engaged in the most effective black PR campaign imaginable against LRH.